No Regrets!

2011-12-21T22:42:00.001+08:00

I feel like the Mario in my New Super Mario game now
2 continues used...
How many more continues do I have? Or is the next one a game over?
Den all the efforts are wasted. All the fun gone too.
And it would never be the same starting all over again.
I know my continues are limited. Very limited.

I'm learning. I'm changing.
And I want to become better.
I need to earn what I want.
I hope I can be good enough.
And deserving of you.

I'll keep my promises.
I'll fulfill my words.
I can and I will.

Filled with remorse and heartache...
Another big big lesson learnt
Ought to use my head and heart more
Too selfish, too ignorant

And I will cherish her even more

2011-12-15T20:06:00.000+08:00

Been a long long time
But december has been great...
Half of it has gone, here's what I've been up to

1) Went to USS for the first time... Free express tickets (thanks to jess's friend)

Conquered the Battlestar galactica!

The new Transformer ride is AWESOME!!! Totally worth the tickets

2) Caught the musical "Wicked" with my dearest

It is a super super nice musical

I enjoyed it even more than Phantom of the Opera

And I think it just so much more meaningful

It really is a must catch

3) Been running, a lot!

3 times a week, mon, wed, friday

Dearest training my fitness for IPPT

Hope to achieve a pass for her

Get a bit of money, treat her to a nice meal

4) Shopping

Going around looking for new year clothes

Both January and Feb gonna be very important months for us

Plenty to prepare

5) Wii

Playing super mario bros together (2 player)

Fun fun... currently cleared till world 5

Test and build our chemistry

Mario kart, Wii sports etc etc

Lots of fun!

Well yea...

Last 3 weeks of holiday

Hope to make it fulfilling

Christmas coming soon...

2011-11-29T21:33:00.001+08:00

I have to say...
Parents sometimes really don't know how to appreciate us
Neither do they understand us
This is not a generalisation, nor is it being rebellious
Just a point I realise, and wish to point out
And I kind of wish someone would tell the parents in the world
Someone with the authority, or someone whom understands

As their children, I don't deny the fact that we have a duty to be filial to our parents
To listen to them, to do what they say, and to give them respect
Afterall, they are more experienced than us, older than us
But thats where they will go wrong

Arrogance perhaps, or just stubbornness
Parents often don't understand what's really going on
Generation gaps and mindsets fix them at their own time
They don't realise how teenagers are changing
Nor they know the things we go through
They take for granted the things we do
They expect us to be filial to them just because we are their children

Yes we will, it's what we have to do, it's what we ought to do
But parents have to realise we do put in the effort to be filial as well
We do have our own sacrifices just so we can do the things they want
But in the end, do they recognise our efforts, do they see it?
Some don't, and they complain, they nag, they think we just make things worse for them

I really don't understand, and I hate it
I just feel that parents should not take their children for granted
They ought to feel lucky, and appreciate the fact that at least we bother to put in the effort
It's not just them spending the energy and time raising us up
We are also making the extra effort and time to repay them for everything
But it doesn't mean they can just take it for granted

The sucky life of being a teenager
But its things we have to suck up
No one wants to be labelled as unfilial, no one wants to disgrace the family
I just feel that parents have to bring down their "status" and see from our point of view
We need appreciation, we need the support from them
We need them to know that we care, and we really try our best to make them happy

But its a point for me to learn... To not make the same mistakes when I become a parent in the future

My heart just hurts.... real badly...

HOW THE ENGLISH LANGUAGE WAS DEVELOPED

2011-11-23T23:43:00.000+08:00

This video is really interesting. Do enjoy =)

How the English Language was Developed

2011-11-20T14:21:00.001+08:00

<<那些年，我們一起追的女孩>>

有人說戀愛最美好的就是曖昧的時候

九把刀說人生最美好的就是青春的時候

電影最美好的就是那些年，我們一起追的女孩

【那些年，我們一起追的女孩】電影主題曲《那些年》

孩子氣 - 陳妍希

This is a great movie to catch

Funny, sweet, touching, heart wrenching perhaps

Makes people think back of all the crazy times we had in school

The studying hard, the rebellious moments, the playful times

Makes me miss my awesome secondary school life

And all my great friends and buddies who have made it so memorable

(P.S Girls who are planning to watch have to be more open. It's quite "rude". Its NC16 mind you.)

But nevertheless, I think this is a MUST NOT MISS movie for all teenagers.

Youth is the best time of our life. Enjoy it. Love it. Treasure it.

Just to share another fun MV by my idol Jay Chou!

His new song with a very entertaining video. Enjoy!!

Jay Chou 周杰倫水手怕水 Hydrophobia Sailor HD

~ 我喜欢你胜过 money ~

”捕吃可吃知不可吃捕吃可吃知不可吃可不吃不吃不吃克制不吃吐司“

2011-11-12T22:57:00.001+08:00

Feeling really bloated now from the buffet dinner
Fisherman Market, was average. Too expensive for the kind of food provided
Don't think it was nice

But the night with the family was awesome
The nicest I've experienced so far, and the sweetest too
There's many hidden signals that tells me my choice is right
And that I can play a part for them
Seeing everyone happy is a big reward to me
Really wish things can stay good and happy for everyone
It's my one and only wish

Exam period is just around the corner
Honestly, this past few weeks has been really tough
It's not just about studies, but also the lack of time
And all the sacrifices we have made
More often then not I am forced to make unwanted decision
Disappointing outcomes, perhaps upsetting at times
And it comes along with being strong and appearing strong
These are times when we have to use more logic than emotions
When we have to prioritise and make hard choices
When we have to do the needs instead of the wants
Disappointments are hard avoid some times
Just have to bear with it for now
Looking forward to the end of exams

I really miss our dates.
Days when we can eat and have fun, play and not think about work.
Nights when we can sit by the sea and have a nice chat under the stars.
These days will be back soon, I promise.
Lets endure a few more days together and look forward to it.

2011-11-11T11:11:00.000+08:00

11/11/11
11:11am
My biggest wish: We will always love each other, and live together happily ever after.

Like a fairy tale eh? Haha
But I'm not afraid to hide it
And since its a once in a lifetime thing, I shall make it big and honest
There is nothing more I wish for than for the best of us
My life is pieced up and beautiful now
And I hope for it to stay that way, or get even better

Anyway, gonna have to start my day with lessons
And the whole afternoon doing project and finishing the report
But I hope the night would be better
Planning to catch a night movie
Cannot let this day go to waste

Hope everyone will have a good day today

2011-11-10T00:49:00.003+08:00

‎*17 most important things to remember in life*

1. Never give up on anybody;miracles happen everyday.

2. Be brave even if your not, pretend to be. No one can tell the difference.

3. Think big thoughts, relish small pleasures.

4. Learn to listen. Oppurtunity sometimes knocks very softly.

5. Never deprive someone of hope, it might be all they have.

6. Strive for excellence, not perfection.

7. Don't waste time greiving over past mistakes. Learn from them and move on.

8. When someone hugs you let them be the first to let go.

9. Never cut what can be untied.

10. Don't expect life to be fair.

11. Remember:Success comes to the one that acts first.

12. Never waste an oppurtunity to tell someone you love them.

13. Remember that nobody makes it alone. Have a greatful heart and be quick to acknowledge those who help you.

14. Never underestimate the power of a kind word or deed.

15. Laugh alot.A good sense of humor cures almost all of life's ills.

16. Don't miss the magic of the moment by focusing on whats to come.

17. Watch for big problems. They disguise big oppurtunities.

2011-11-07T01:10:00.000+08:00

I'm in need of a break
Past few days have been working on my HR report
The longest and biggest report I've done so far in Uni
60% of coursework, 25 pg main body. Probably another 25 pages or more for Appendix
And a 2-3 page executive summary (which doesn't really make it a summary anymore, does it?)
And it seems like I'm the only one in the group who is consistently working on the report
Still have law presentation to do and prepare, lucky it isn't too hard, and more individualistic
Have yet to start working on my Accounting cash flow, which is like a HUGE headache

Anyway, enough of complaining
Despite all the tough times with school work
The past few days hasn't been bad at all
Coz I have a great company who is motivating me and working hard together with me
Its great when we have a common goal together
Studying and revising (though it gets really sian...), saving money, exercising (not really doing so...)
Exam period drawing near, don't really have much time to enjoy

Waiting for Wednesday to arrive
I need a break. We need a break.
Some good food. Window shopping. Catch a nice movie. Ice-cream waffles or desserts
Ahh... if only have space and money for some awesome buffet too. but I guess that'll have to wait :/

ahh! got poked... lols

Oh, and I wanna give a big shoutout to my dearest here!
Thanks for all the time spent together. Any tough time is made bearable and fun with your company.
And thanks so much for pre-ordering Jay Chou's CD for me!!! It really is kinda expensive...
Thank you thank you!!
Let's jiayou for our studies kk! It'll be over real soon.
But before that, I am SO LOOKING FORWARD TO WEDNESDAY!! =D
Gonna be fun and awesome!! Must remind me to bring camera kk!

Before I go, here's a video to share. Just a nice song from Sam Tsui and Kurt

Pop Medley 2011

2011-10-30T23:58:00.001+08:00

Coming to the end of October
Feels to me that it has been a really long month
Time seems to pass slower
Perhaps coz have been studying so much recently
It gets dull and sian, but can't really help it
Exam is around the corner, and there are plenty to catch up and study

Plenty of thoughts in my head now
Not just school work, but some personal stuffs too
Daily things happening around me
Are making me look ahead to the future
And teaching me to be more matured

I dunno if I should be typing things here
Probably won't, coz it doesn't feel right
Perhaps I am just wishing for an opportunity to talk
Realised that there are still plenty of things I can improve on
Many things that I am still not doing right
Lots of things that I want to learn and understand

I know there are plenty of things to think, plan and worry about in a relationship
Could everything be shared and discussed with the partner?
Or there are issues that you can only face alone?
Things that can never be discussed with the other person?

It's just lots of dilemma I guess
I really hope that we can be completely open
With our thoughts and feelings
I'm most afraid of miscommunication spoiling a relationship
Coz I think it's the least worth it
But, its a very difficult thing to attain, is it?

I shall make sure it begins with me
Realised I might not have been doing what I wish for from the other
It's not going to work if I become a hypocrite
Note to self, note to self...

2011-10-21T19:14:00.001+08:00

Another short story that I wish to share, taken from Facebook

【 Marriage 】
「When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes..

Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.
— At least, in the eyes of our son — I’m a loving husband...

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.

So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

Stories like this serves as good reminders for ourselves

Whether attached or not

Reflect about ourselves, the kind of person we are

And be prepared for the future

2011-10-20T23:34:00.000+08:00

Shall share some sweet things on my blog this time
Just some important and useful facts in life

How to Make a Girl Happy!

And to share this short story:

A boy was born to a couple after eleven years of marriage. They were a loving couple and the boy was the apple of their eyes. When the boy was around two years old, one morning the husband saw a medicine bottle open. He was late for work so he asked the wife to cap the bottle and keep it in the cupboard. The mother, preoccupied in the kitchen, totally forgot the matter.

The boy saw the bottle and playfully went to the bottle and, fascinated with its color, drank it all. It happened to be a poisonous medicine meant for adults in small dosages. When the child collapsed, the mother hurried him to the hospital, where he died. The mother was stunned. She was terrified how to face her husband.

When the distraught father came to the hospital and saw the dead child, he looked at his wife and uttered just four words.

What do you think were the four words?

The husband just said "I Love You Darling"

The husband's totally unexpected reaction is proactive behavior. The child is dead. He can never be brought back to life. There is no point in finding fault with the mother. Besides, if only he have taken time to keep the bottle away, this will not have happened. No
point in attaching blame. She had also lost her only child. What she needed at that moment was consolation and sympathy from the husband. That is what he gave her.

Sometimes we spend time asking who is responsible or who to blame, whether in a relationship, in a job or with the people we know. We miss out some warmth in human relationship in giving each other support. After all, shouldn't forgiving someone we love be the easiest thing in the world to do? Treasure what you have. Don't multiply pain, anguish and suffering by holding on to forgiveness.

If everyone can look at life with this kind of perspective, there would be much fewer problems in the world.

Take off all your envies, jealousies, unwillingness to forgive, selfishness, and fears and you will find things are actually not as difficult as you think...!!!

All taken from Facebook
Remember to love and cherish those around you

2011-10-09T01:18:00.001+08:00

It has been 1 month already
Its really fast, and its a good thing
Hoping that anniversary comes fast too

Its not really about getting older
But more of having spent more time together
And moving towards a common future together
I am really excited for that
To be able to know that there will be someone with you

There are plenty to look forward to
Things to do, places to go, food to eat, time to spend together
We are growing stronger and having more fun

Every 11:11, shooting star etc wishes will be the same from now on
That we can stay strong and stay together
That's all that I ask for
Coz nothing will be impossible if we stick by and support each other

Want only the best for her, and the both of us
Looking forward to our next milestone
And also our package arrival on friday!! =D

2011-10-02T00:13:00.000+08:00

6 months since we first met
So many things has happened during the 6 months
But I have never been happier and more grateful
I feel very lucky to have had the chance to meet her
On this very day 6 months ago
And I have been very fortunate to be given the opportunity to woo her
To give her my care and concern and love
And to receive her patience and sweetness
We have really gone through so much together
But I still treasure and cherish her, and always will
And just a reminder to myself to give her my best

As a student, we are not very rich
We fall into a relationship and want to give everything we can
We face many constraints
Studies, parents, schools, money, time
But I believe that material stuffs should not get in the way
School-life love can be as memorable and sweet too
Without all the fanciful flowers, expensive presents or great food
Its the time when you really do what you can with what you have
And the true efforts will pay off
Its the heart that counts, not the money or presents

I hope to be able to create that simple yet romantic love story
Meeting in uni, going through ups and downs, tears and joy
And staying together throughout
Be it studying together, eating canteen or hawker food,
Or just hanging out by the beach, playing with sand, enjoying the breeze
It all can be fun too if I am able to make it memorable
And it will become a sweet memory of our budding years of a true love

2011-09-19T10:28:00.001+08:00

Start of week 7

Gonna be a hell of a week with 2 mid-terms coming

1 of which I have not started preparing at all

And lots of projects to handle

But heck it, I am gonna pull through this week

Coz next week is recess week!!

And I am having a great weekend to look forward to!

Lesson is starting in 5 mins

And I'm seeing people from the previous class le

Means I've got to go soon!!

But anyway, I know there are still quite a few of you reading this

Thanks for your concerns and everything

Main aim for this post today...

Is to share that I'm together with my girl already

For about a week or so

Perhaps you'll see my status on facebook change too

But there really isn't a need to go on a big disclosure anyway

Loving my new gf, and working hard to make it last

Life has taken on a new meaning and direction for me

And I am loving it right now

2011-09-18T10:02:00.000+08:00

Week 6 of school is over
Next week is mid-terms
Den its recess week already
Can't wait for mid-terms to be over
So I can have a day break or two
Relax, eat and play

Anyway, just a short post today
To share a lesson I've learnt or realized

Sometimes people want to do something for us
Or offer a helping hand to make certain things happen
They usually will go through lots of trouble and time
And how would we reply them??
"Don't need lah. So troublesome for you."
"If troublesome then nvm lahh"
"Nvm lah, don't want to trouble you"
"So sorry to trouble you"

Think about it...
People are offering to help you
Sometimes they want to do it because they love you
Sometimes they do it because they are your friends
Yes it may be troublesome for them
But should you hence just reject or "push" them away

I think we have to be learn to be more grateful instead
We shouldn't say nvm or say sorry
Instead we should be thankful for their help
We should learn to be more appreciative instead of sorry or "paiseh"
Because people wants to do it, they want to do things for you
Let them do so, then repay them in your own way next time

I believe they will appreciate it more that their efforts are recognised
Rather than being disallowed from doing what they want for you
They'll be happy, you should be happy as well
And then do something back for them, make them happy as well
I'm sure this can make everyone happier, and closer
That's what friends are there for, isn't it

Well, that's about it.
It's all about looking at things from another perspective
And with another attitude, which I believe is the better one

And here's a beautiful song to share with everyone.
Enjoy and be grateful for the people around you.

Boys Like Girls - Two is Better than One

2011-09-12T23:57:00.000+08:00

Been a really long and eventful day today

It got off to a great start with breakfast together

Den off to school for lessons

Encouraging and motivating each other to study hard

Den suddenly 1 wrong move and the mood took a big swing

Killed the later part of the day

Fortunately misunderstandings were resolved

There was communication

Ambiguity was removed, and reassurance made

And a huge huge lesson learnt for me

But being able to hear and learn from it is so important

And I know it'll make us stronger day by day

Managed to have a small but memorable mid-autumn festival

Hiding behind my car at a public carpark

Playing with candles and sparklers

Eating a bit of mooncake

And just sitting down and talk

Simple, but all important and sweet

So fortunate I didn't have to spend it alone

Promises made are meant to be kept

Reminds me of Chris Medina's What are Words

What a great and meaningful song

And I should really keep that song in mind

True love indeed

I've had many experiences and lessons learnt about promises

And I know to take them seriously

Coz they are to be made from the heart

And to be kept with all your heart as well

Yep, it has been yet another scary but important day

I'm sure things will continue to get better in the future

I am really grateful for all that I have and am given

And I will work hard and cherish it

2011-09-10T14:52:00.001+08:00

Wow.. The new blogger layout is... super different
Feels kinda confusing though, everything is too... exposed
I dunno, just looks weird. Maybe I'll get used to it
Or maybe I'll just change it back to the old one

Anyway.. 9th Sept was a wonderful day for me
And another benchmark day in my life
Totally for me to remember

Had a totally awesome time
And I guess my life is gonna change too
Gonna be working extra hard for my future already

Watched Smurf
Totally in love with it
Funny, cute and meaningful movie
With great family and personal messages to learn
Touching and heart-warming
The blue moon and about being a Papa
Cherish things that happens once in a blue moon
There will always be something good in it for you to remember

Yep, other part of my days were great after that
But nth for me to disclose here

Gonna have the room to myself this few days
And enjoy some peace at home too

2011-09-07T08:20:00.003+08:00

Always doing things the hard way
That's how I feel with my life
Dunno since when, things has never been easy before
Almost everything I wish to do, or try to get
I'm faced with so many difficulties and disappointments

Yep indeed, I'm complaining that life is tough
Very tough for me
And more often than not
I have to face them alone

I do not deny that I have many supportive and caring friends
They do keep me going, pushing me when I feel like giving up
And encouraging me when I feel down
I am really grateful for them

But nevertheless, I will have to go through ordeals of pain and hardship alone first
I always learn things the hard way
Falling and hurting myself first
Rarely do I get advices from experienced people
Or perhaps no one knows what I'm going through
And it's hard to tell others as well

But through it all I learned to overcome
I toughen myself, I froze my heart
I learn to be optimistic so that I won't feel so lost
I look forward to the day when I will be rewarded for my effort
I wish that someday it will be all worth it
But I can't tell when this day is coming
Neither do I see it coming yet...

It's alright...
I'll be fine. That's what I always tell myself
Perhaps its just me thinking too much at times
Or I'm just too afraid of another disappointment
But I will just have to do my best, and let fate/God decide the rest
I know things will become better
I just know it

2011-09-02T09:55:00.003+08:00

Listening to Taylor Swift
Sitting at NTU Canteen B
Waiting for lesson to start

It's finally September!
Hooray for a rather awesome August.
September shall be as good or better
Though school gonna get busy and stressful
But life shall be good
Just wish that everything will pass smoothly
And that we can still have fun in the midst of studying

Hmmmm... I don't really know what to type
Preparing for more surprises and special days in September
Looking forward to Mid-Autumn Festival in fact
Trying to think of activities to do that day
And more more... Need my creative ideas

Small actions with pure intention counts a lot
Nothing fanciful, nothing expensive
Just with a good heart to make people happy
And express your true feelings
Things that can be done regularly and with ease
Small behaviors, Big thoughts

2011-08-29T23:54:00.002+08:00

August is coming to an end soon
Been another eventful month

Anyway my mind is currently in a mess right now
Something triggered me to want to blog something
But... I am really feeling just very messed up

okay shit.. i'm not gonna blog anymore

2011-08-19T08:33:00.002+08:00

TGIF!
Another week is about to pass once again
Week 2 of the semester is over
Slowly counting down, looking forward to the next term break again already

Life is always full of ups and downs
But through all the rough time
We learn how to cope, how to be positive and how to communicate
Makes us a more matured person
Teaches us many things about others and more importantly about ourselves
Changes you for the better (hopefully, and supposedly too)
Knowing your goals and what you want in life
Knowing what you need to be and how to become
Every event is a lesson to be learnt, be it good or bad
Take a look at things from a different perspective
Use them to benefit you and others as well
Perhaps life can feel so much better that way

Ahhh.. just some random philosophical thoughts
Anyway I got my hands down and dirty again ytd
Had the whole afternoon free
Hence decided to do some baking with my sister
Our first attempt at making brownies!!
But it turned out to be a rather hilarious affair
When we miscommunicated and turned our chocolate brownie into a cake
By adding baking powder instead of baking soda
So in the end we had a chocolate 'brownie' cake in the oven
But its still nice and edible, though can be greatly improved
Pictures are on my facebook, I'm lazy to transfer it here
But now that I know how to make it, its definitely gonna be SO much better next time
Look forward to it!!!

2011-08-09T09:22:00.002+08:00

Happy National Day!!!
Singapore 46 years old liao
I am looking forward to the 100 celebration
By then I should be.... 76 =D
That would be an awesome national day I believe
Wonder how "hi-tech" and different things will become

Anyway school has started
Homework are gradually coming in already -.-
Decided to drop 1 core so that I have more time to study
Spread my workload evenly so I can cope better and do better
Only headache now is getting all the textbooks
Forever so expensive.. =/
And I'm already so so broke
Grahhh.. Have to get money from my parents already

Feeling out of form and out of shape
Been almost 3 weeks since I last worked out at the gym or what
Horrible horrible shape now
Hence I shall be hitting the gym later to pump it all up
And go for a swim to keep my tan
So much restrictions when you are low on cash
But things can still be as fun if you know how to enjoy and live with it
Wonder what can be done today on a national day holiday
Need some ideasss...

2011-08-06T10:05:00.004+08:00

Completed my task today!!
Made blueberry pancake for breakfast
And not from those pre-mixed flour
Mixed and did everything myself
First time, turned out not too shabby
But I think there can be more adjustments made to the recipe
Here are some pictures

Job done!! =D

2011-08-06T00:37:00.003+08:00

TGIF!
I had a great time today at the Zoo!!
Been quite a while since I last went back there
Weather was great, though a bit hot
Spent the whole afternoon walking through the park
Witness many interesting sights
Animal feeding, elephant shows, baboons and a zebra "on the loose"
Now looking forward to visiting Night Safari for Halloween
Heard its quite a scare inside
Exciting!

Holidays coming to an end
Already been receiving emails from the profs and lecturers
Even have a pre-test up for us to do by this weekend -.-
But my holidays have been AWESOME
Now just enjoying the last few days
Eating lots of good food, watched movies, shopped
Visiting many places like museums, and the zoo
Making use of the holiday to see and learn new things
Just like what my grandma nagged at me to do
I think it has been a holiday well spent for me

2 more days till school start
Not gonna waste the time as well
Looking forward to Sunday
Already sort of planned out the day
Visiting and eating once again
And getting ready for Monday's lesson
Not exactly dreading school or what
Coz I'm looking forward to my Dec plans once Sem 1 ends!
Gotta start saving saving saving when school starts next week

Oh... One last thing
Gonna try something interesting after I wake up
My first time I think... Quite excited
Hope everything turns out well and nice
Shall not disclose it yet
I'll take pictures and post it up tmrw

Nights!

2011-08-01T22:13:00.003+08:00

Welcome to August!

UOC Camp is finally over
Lots of things happened, I don't wish to elaborate
Glad that my group did well, came in overall 4th
Being a GL is so super stressful and tiring
After this camp I am never gonna do another one already
Just too much work

Left with hall camp which I am not interested in anymore
Just gonna be there for the 2 days which I am required
Not gonna stay much longer or what
Breaking off connections with hall already
I want no commitments anymore

August got off to a very scary start
I don't know how things are going to turn out
It's either a brand new start or "THE END"
But in any case, I finally have no other commitments whatsoever already
Gonna put full focus on studies
And I have lots to do to set things right again

Did a lot of self-reflection this few days
Realized I am still not good enough
Learning mistakes through the hard way
It's torturous, it's painful
But I want to make it all worth it
And I know it will be if I am given a second chance

Really wish I can turn back time...
Made the wrong decision, regretting like mad now
But the damage has already been done
I have only myself to blame
And I am the only one who can clear up all the mess
Have to do it myself, and quickly as well

And I pray hard for the wisdom and knowledge to do things right
I pray for a guiding light to show me the way
I pray for blessings and love for her so that she have a peace of mind and be happy
I pray for a life as wonderful as she is
Peace be with her, and everyone else

2011-07-24T08:07:00.003+08:00

Its D-DAY!!!
After almost 1 long year of planning and canvassing
It's finally time for UOC 11
Been a super long journey to this day
Had lots of tough time but also lots of fun through this
Learnt many things, made many friends
Very looking forward to the camp this year
Has so much potential and fun waiting for us and the freshies
Hope that everything will run smoothly
And weather will be good this 6 days

Damn my swollen eye
Looking horrible right now
But what to do, I still have to go for camp
Didn't have time to go see a doctor too
Hope it'll heal up fast

Camp starts in 5 hours time!
Lets go KETTA!!

2011-07-16T08:40:00.002+08:00

It's already Sat, good time pass real fast
Anyway been quite a while since I last shared something interesting
Happen to come across this song today
An oldie, but it's a really nice and meaningful song
So here I am gonna share with everyone
Dedicated to the one we love the most in our life

The Police - Every Breath You Take

And who knew mario theme song could sound so fantastic!
Super Mario World theme song cover - vocal & guitar multitrack Nintendo ...

Enjoy, and have a great weekend!! =)

2011-07-14T22:42:00.002+08:00

This week has been nothing short of awesome
Been a bit busy here and there
Preparing for the camps, and hanging out

Have made some big decisions this week I guess
And lots of things said and done
Gonna affect me and my life
But it's all fine, coz its within control
And I know what I want, and need to do

Gonna have a short escape next week!
Heading to Vietnam for 4.5 days
Away from all the hectic work here in Singapore
Though I'm pretty sure they'll still find its way to me somehow
But nevertheless I'm gonna enjoy my deserving break over there
Before coming back for a fun union camp
And before school starts once again.

It's already mid of July
Full moon tmrw
I'm very grateful for everything so far
And enjoying every moment of it
And making the effort to let it last
Gonna end the long summer holidays with a BANG!

And I am so so broke now...
Money money.... No money

2011-07-12T07:41:00.002+08:00

Beautiful Sunday was memorable and unforgettable
It was the best performance I've had since I joined SparksWinds
Never expected a full (and overflowing) Esplanade concert hall
Feeling was just awesome
Band played welled too, great music and all
For me, it was just a bit off perfection, but I'm not complaining
Just a wee bit disappointed in and for myself, but it can't be helped
Nevertheless, I had a great concert
Thinking about my future already though...

Now that concert is over
Just left one last commitment to the UOC Camp

Hoping to take a break next week
Can't seem to communicate efficiently
And it somehow really irritates me
I am telling myself not to ever be like that in the future
Coz the feeling at the receiving end really sucks
I'll be better than that

2011-07-08T23:24:00.003+08:00

Performance in 2 days time!
OMG excited and nervous
A few first time for me for this beautiful sunday
Looking forward to it
And I really hope everything goes well for the band and I
I want and need to put up my best performance ever

And camp is quite settled already
All about set and ready to go
A few more preparation to do in the next few weeks
Am so looking forward to the camp
Just 1 thing missing for me, which I will try to get
It's my greatest wish for this camp

This week has been awesome
Lots of fun and laughters
Great moments and memories
I'm really enjoying and treasuring all these
And I hope things will just get better on
I will be very self-concious and make things work

Another long and busy weekend ahead
But it'll be over soon
And all the efforts will pay off
Can't wait

2011-07-06T10:08:00.002+08:00

I'm super grateful for all I have
People who stayed by me even through the hardest time
Friends who forgives me even when I have hurt them
And I will tell myself to be more careful, more sensitive and more loving
To treasure those that are around me, and never let them go
To reciprocate the care and concern that they showed me

I've came to realize something very important
I might have been too self-centred
Always thinking too highly myself
Thinking that others needs me
But it has struck me that not everyone might really need me
And I need that person more instead

I've learnt that loving someone
Is not looking for the person that needs you
But is looking for the person that you need
The person whom makes life meaningless when they are absent in it
And of coz, treasure and appreciate the person whom you need
At least let them know that you need them, and you are grateful

Ytd was fun
Cycling at ECP, dinner at Changi Village
Fish and Chips there is awesome
And so is the Prawn and Fruit Salad
Den chilling at Changi beach, from sunset till dark
Quiet, peaceful, fine sand, a starry night sky and landing planes
Shall head over there more often
Best beach venue in Singapore so far

2011-07-01T22:37:00.002+08:00

July, you are not too nice after all

First, my fear came true
Kinda expected, was hoping for a miracle, didn't come
Forget it, that is already decided

Next, I got HRC for 2nd spec
Not exactly what i wanted, but it isn't too bad
I am gonna take it

Now the problem is...
I only have 2 cores for my exchange
Means must overload when I come back
Plus already have to overload a bit for 2nd spec
Don't know if I want that kind of stress
Will my results be put at risk?
And the expenses too... Thousands of dollars...

I need to consider...

But nevertheless
Thank you for the happy night...

2011-06-30T09:54:00.002+08:00

Finally received my UK acceptance package
After a long 2 months wait
Things didn't turn out too well
Only 1 approved core, 1 tentative, and 2 rejected
Effectively meaning I can only clear 2 modules for next sem
Which means I have to overload like mad when I get back

But this is not my main worry
I don't mind overloading, I don't mind working harder
I'm more worried about having to go there alone
It'll be a big turn off for me if it happens that way
Perhaps you'll see me fall into another depression period
I am so so scared of it happening
Please don't let things go that way
Good people will have good returns right?
I certainly hope so
Or it'll be just fate laughing at me and refusing to give me another chance
Condemning me for the huge mistake I made a few days back
It should be out within the next 24 hours of so
I can only wish for the best

I can't don't go either
She'll just kill me if I don't
My future really lies in an unknown hand
Please don't crush and destroy it

Such a gloomy day today
Guess I wouldn't really be myself for today
Until I know the results

I remembered I wished for June to be a better month than May
Apparently it hasn't been, not even like May, but much much worse
But it's also a month when I've learnt a lot, about people, about myself
As June comes to an end today
I look back, and see how many stupid things I've done
How many moments when I really smiled and enjoyed
I treasure those moments, and ask that they come back again in July
I don't ask for much, I just want to be happy so that I can make the people around me happy

July, please be kind
Thanks with lots of love

2011-06-28T22:05:00.003+08:00

Today marks the end of my job at Singapore Pools
After 1 year and 4 months there answering calls
Finally left my job today
Well, it has been a good part-time job to earn money
But work has been dull, and there isn't much room for self-improvement
Its has been a pleasure working there though
Met many people, supervisors were very nice
Perhaps I'll go back to help during Euros
But won't be for long term
Decided to put more focus on my studies

Hmmm, don't really know what else to update
So shall leave it here

2011-06-26T23:38:00.002+08:00

Took advice from my sister and removed certain sensitive things in my blog
Tmrw marks the start of a brand new week
I just wish that the remaining of my holidays would be fun and happy
And so are the people around me
Too much unhappiness from all over have been surrounding me this week
Time to move on. Wish to see more smiles

And i hope that bloody UH acceptance package better come soon
Taking so long, causing so much delays and anxiety
My whole Europe trip is on hold and waiting for the package to come

2 more weeks to concert
Getting excited
Gonna be another major "milestone" for me as well
Feels super unprepared, but push on push on!

For those who don't know
SparksWinds (my alumni band) performing at Esplanade
10 July - 3pm - FREE
Come support if you are free, see me in action =P and enjoy an afternoon full of awesome pop songs
Check out my Facebook event Beautiful Sunday - Sparks Goes Pop! for more details

Late at night
Got woken up by Clement to fill in the shirt orders
And my stomach growling due to my no-carb dinner
Hope can get a good night sleep
Ciaos

2011-06-26T01:28:00.005+08:00

Hey readers, I know you are out there
People who regularly reads my blogs, be it kaypoh or really concerned about me
But I'm grateful that there are friends out there who supports me and encourage me
Here I am to say a big THANK YOU to you
I know I might be moody at times, and appear cold/quiet/uninterested
Thank you for bearing with me and being understanding
Thank you for being concerned and checking on me

And jiayou to all those couples out there
Really treasure the one you love when you still have them

*****

Senior camp is finally over today
Awesome day honestly
Fun and charged up for the camp
Although there are still many things to be done
And I really am very very grateful to all my SAs and AGL
They have really been a super supportive group ever since I started being the GL
Could never have made it this far without them
Loving my group even more
And totally looking forward to more awesome time together at UOC 2011
Ketta FTW!

2011-06-23T20:24:00.003+08:00

I've decided to stop working at MBS early
left one more day, 5 hours, $30
But who cares, I don't wish to work there anymore
No pleasure, and the people I know are not working as well already
Shall take a break on Friday and do the things I want
Like swim, gym, go out with her, stroll by the beach, chillax and talk

Ok.. I dunno what to type le
Bye

2011-06-22T22:37:00.003+08:00

Settling things for K-grp never fails to frustrate me
One way or another
Uncooperative, indecisive, and lost people
Freaking tiring to prepare and plan and do things for them
Grahh, doing all this shit
Better be worth all the effort

Day 2 of work is over
And it totally SUCKS!
Job as a surveyor sucks! BIG TIME!
Nothing is good or fun about that job
The only thing that kept me happy there was that she is around
But that bloody job made her unwell again
PISSED! And tmrw I'll be doing it by myself already
Much as I hate the job, I shall not be a quitter
Endure and finish it till the end
RAWR!

***

Missing you is my hobby,
caring for you is my job,
make you happy is my duty,
and loving you is my life.

2011-06-16T09:40:00.001+08:00

Show Honor to Your Wife
By Mark Driscoll

Whether you're Christian or not, there are some truths to be learned from this article here for all men, husbands and aspiring/future husbands.
Your Wife Trusts You with the Rest of Her Life
If a woman marries a man, she’s trusting him with the rest of her life that he won’t hit her, cheat on her, that he’ll work hard, that he’ll pay the bills, that he’ll love their children, that he’ll finish the race well, that he’ll walk with Jesus until the end, that if she gets sick, he’ll look after her, that if she is dying, he will be faithful to her. Gentlemen, it is a terrifying thing for a woman to trust a sinful man.
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Every man who reads this, even the best men among us, has areas of repentance and growth that are required.
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As a man, I don’t think I fully understood this until I had daughters, and now I have some understanding of that fear. The thought of taking one of my daughters and walking them down the aisle and handing them to a man and trusting that he will love them and protect them and serve them and care for them and look after them, it causes me fear and grave concern.

1. Honor Your Wife Maritally
What this means is, gentlemen, you’re not looking for a girlfriend if you are single. You’re not looking for a roommate. You’re not looking for a cohabitation partner. You’re looking for a wife. You must honor her while dating, that is when you're on your best behavior. I don’t care if you apologize, do you repent and lead? Being sorry is not enough; being Christ-like is what is necessary.
Ephesians 5:25 says, “Husbands are to love their wives as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her.” Are you selfless or selfish? Do you give yourself up for her or do you take from her?
What it is to be a one-woman man
When you get married, men, you are to be a one-woman man. That’s the requirement of an elder and that is the example for all men.
You’re not the flirt guy
You’re not the female buddies guy
You’re not the download porn guy
You’re not the “I got another gal on the side I always keep in case of emergency” guy
You’re not the wandering eye guy
If you are, you’re not honoring marriage and you’re not honoring your wife.
Don't make women fearful of men
I know some complete fools, they like to take their wedding ring off when they go out to the sports bar with the boys. Do you honor your marriage covenant? Do you take responsibility as the head of the marriage covenant, take responsibility for the well-being of the woman?
A woman has great fear. If you don’t honor marriage, she is statistically going to go into poverty upon divorce. She will become yet another single mother. She’ll have to find a way to explain to the children of why they shouldn’t be embittered against you even though you’re a loser. See, these fears are very legitimate. Women have seen this so many times that they’re fearful of men.

2. Honor Her Physically
Peter says that the woman is the “weaker vessel”. What that means is, generally speaking, if a husband and a wife get in a fist-fight, he’ll win. I’ll give you an example. Many of you have seen my wife, Grace. If we get in a fight, it’s not a fair fight. I have an 18-inch neck, she has an 18-inch waist. If someone breaks into our home, I’m not, “Go get ‘em, baby. You’re the tough one here. I’ll pray. II’ll pray imprecatory prayers in the closet.”
You know what, gentlemen? You are stronger than your woman
Do you ever hit her?
Do you ever shove her?
Do you ever push her?
Do you ever grab her, restrain her?
Do you ever raise a hand and threaten her?
Do you ever intimidate her with physical violence?
Do you give her that look, that pierced, glazed, violent, angry, don’t-push-it-now’s-a-good-time-to-shut-up look?
Do you tell her, “I’m getting very angry, you should just shut up right now. It’s gonna go bad for you”?
Do you get right in her face?
Do you intimidate her with your presence?
Shame on you. A man who picks on a woman, what a joke.
Have you ever forced yourself on a woman? You’re a rapist.
You’ll say, “She’s my wife.” You’re a rapist.
Don't hold your wife prisoner
When someone is attacked, we call it abuse. As horrible as that is, what is even worse is torment. Torment is when you’re abused and you can’t get out. This is like prisoners of war and those who are held captive in slavery. For some women, their version of slavery and captivity and torment is called marriage. Their husband is physically intimidating. She’s afraid of him. She can’t leave, at least that’s what she thinks. She feels stuck, particularly if she’s got children. Some of you guys are tormentors and abusers and rapists and husbands and Christians, and that is absolutely inexcusable.
Women, a man who hits you is in sin
Most men don’t walk around thinking about their personal safety. I know a lot of women who do. Does she feel safe with you? Ladies, if you’re dating a guy who has ever been physically violent, run for your life, run for your children’s life, run for your grandchildren’s life. If he’s ever even threatened you with violence, there is something profoundly demonic in that man. There is something sincerely wrong in that man. He will then apologize, tell you he is sorry. He will shed a few tears, say it will never happen again and he will subtly shift the blame to you. “You know when you do that, it just makes me really angry. Don’t do that again.”
“Oh, okay, it must be my fault.” It’s never your fault. It doesn’t matter what you say or do, if a man hits you, harms you, he’s in sin, no excuse.
Head-of-the-house does not mean bully
And there are some guys, some absolute block-headed idiots who think when the Bible says that you’re the head of the home, that it means you get to be the bully. There’s nothing uglier than a guy who then takes this same disposition toward his children, especially his daughters. The grossest, vilest thing is a man who hits a woman, and the man who hits a woman is willing to hit his own daughter. It’s disgusting.

3. Honor Your Wife Emotionally
Some of you say, “I’m not emotional, I don’t connect.” You should. Men and women have the same emotions; they express them in masculine and feminine ways. Your wife needs intimacy. She wants you to know her. She wants to know you. She wants you to open up. She wants you to be passionate and loving and honest, and she wants to know you and she wants to be known by you. And the Bible says that Adam was with his wife, Eve, and he, what?
He knew her.
There are too many guys that turn marriage into a job description. He does his responsibility, she does hers, and there’s no emotional connection whatsoever. Those are guys whose sins are sins of omission. “I didn’t hit her, I didn’t yell at her.” Yeah, but you didn’t love her. You didn’t connect with her. You didn’t encourage her. You didn’t pursue her.
Ultimately, you failed her.

4. Honor Her Verbally
How do you speak to her? Do you have nasty nicknames for her? Do you raise your voice? Do you threaten her? Do you give back-handed comments? Some of you guys would say, “I would never hit a woman.” How about with your tongue?
When you wife is not there and you’re with the boys, how do you speak of her? What do you say about her?
Dont' put your children in the middle
You know what? Your children will pick this up as well.
You start saying horrible things about your wife, and the children will be left in this horrible position of choosing between their mother and father and invariably some of the children will despise their own mother and speak evil of her in an effort to remain loyal to their father.
A division in a marriage includes the children, they’re stuck in the middle. They’re casualties of the war.
If I close my eyes, no one can see me
You men could defuse this and take away this fear by honoring her verbally. Speaking honestly, respectfully, lovingly to her and about her. Some of you guys forget. You say, “Well, Jesus isn’t there. My wife isn’t there. I get to say whatever I want.” No, Jesus is there even when your wife’s not there. God sees everything. God knows everything, and you’re not getting away with anything.

5. Honor Your Wife Financially
“If a man does not provide for the needs of his family, he’s denied the faith and worse than an unbeliever” (1 Timothy 5:8).
In Genesis, the woman’s curse was her children and submitting to her husband. The man’s curse was providing for his family. And what the weakest, most impish, worthless men among us do is, “Oh, my load is heavy. I know yours is heavy, but I need you to carry half of mine too.”
Men, you have to work
You've got to work hard. You’ve got to out-work the other men if you want to feed your family. That’s your responsibility as a man. If you want any men to respect you, if you want your wife to respect you, if you want your children to respect you, you pay the bills. You make the money, you feed the family.
We live in this day where there are guys telling their wives,
“Hey, birth control, abortion”
“We can’t have kids”
“You make too much money”
“I don’t like responsibility.”
Shame on you.
Your wife has a maternal duty to fulfill
There’s nothing sadder than a woman who loves Jesus and wants to be a mom, and the husband keeps saying, “I’m the head of the home, no.” What he’s saying is “I’m in charge and I command you to sin, to deny all of your maternal instincts." Titus 2 says, “The woman should be homeward in her orientation.”
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We’re a culture that is working hard to protect women and children, and no one has the common sense to beat on the guys who are the cause of so much of the pain.
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And I know that some of you guys are going to say, “Oh, but this is outdated.” Yes, and I would say look at the condition of marriages and families in our culture and ask if it’s working.
The latest statistics indicate 40 percent of all children are born out of wedlock. It is now at the point where women aren’t even pretending they’re going to ever get married.
They go to college, get a good job, get pregnant, have a kid. They’ve lost any hope of ever finding a guy who can actually carry the load, and that’s tragic. We’re a culture that is working hard to protect women and children, and no one has the common sense to beat on the guys who are the cause of so much of the pain.
Be generous with your wife
I know guys as well, they’re not generous. I know one guy, he’s such an idiot. This guy makes decent money and he’s totally chintzy with his wife. She gets no spending money, can’t go out to coffee with the girls because he’s a total control freak and tightwad. Be honoring of your wife financially. I’m not saying you have to live at a lavish and high level. But what I am saying is live within your means, you make a budget, you tithe, spend, save, invest well. I know it’s hard to live on one income. I know it’s particularly difficult in this economic climate, but for some of you boys, it’s a built-in excuse to be irresponsible.
Run the numbers rather assuming you need a second income
Statistically, if you have children, and put them in day care so mom can work, the other costs that are associated: eating out, take-out, dry cleaning, car, second phone, cell phone, things of that nature, plus the increased tax breaks and costs and burdens very rarely contribute anything to the bottom line of the family. The taxes alone eat a huge portion of it.
MSNBC did a big study on this years ago and they brought the data to the mothers who dropped their kids off at the day care. “You’re providing nothing to the income of the family,” and the women are bawling, having a nervous breakdown on television, saying, “Well, then why am I even going to work?”
Because that guy doesn’t know how to run numbers on taxes. He’s not smart enough to find somebody to figure it out for him. He just says, “Put the kids in day care, get a job, shoulder half of my curse. Oh and by the way, I forgot to run the numbers, come to find it’s not really helping.”
Honor her financially.

6. Honor Her Practically
With some guys, the house is a wreck. It’s never finished, the furniture’s broken, the car hardly starts, they live far away from community, they don’t have a schedule, they don’t have a budget, they don’t have a plan, the wife doesn’t know what’s going on.
Honor her practically. Do you have a budget? Do you have a schedule? Do you have an integrated plan? Do you have a life?

7. Honor Her Parentally
Gentlemen, your wife wants you to love the kids. She wants you to help raise them. She wants you to love them, to pursue them. She wants you to get guy time with your sons. She wants you to get daddy dates with your daughters. She wants you to do Ephesians 6 and be their pastor. She wants you to read the Bible with them. She wants you to pray with them. And you know what? You should want that too.
Do your job
So many guys who are Christians think “I pay for Christian school, I send the wife and kids to the Christian church. I’ve done my Christian duty.” No, you’ve abdicated your responsibility to others. It’s your job to love your kids. It’s your job to pray with your kids. It’s your job to teach the Bible to your kids. It’s your job to encourage your kids. It’s your job to discipline your kids.
“
Christian, husband, father, employee. Those are your first four duties; it’ll take most of your life. You’re not going to have a lot of time.
”
A wife will be so forgiving of so many things if she actually knows her husband desperately loves their children, that he serves them, that he cares for them, that he’s tender with them, that he’s Pastor Dad for them. So few children actually have a father. So few of those actually have a Christian father and how few of those actually have a dad who’s doing his job.
And I’ll tell you what, guys, this is not something you have to do; it’s something you get to do.
This is wonderful. Every night, my daughter Alexie, blond hair, blue eyes and looks like Tinkerbell says, “Poppa Daddy, I need a piggyback ride and a Bible story.” You know what? I do too. I need that as much as Alexie. I weep thinking of the day that I’m not going to be giving her piggyback rides, so I give her as many piggyback rides as I can because it’s a great season and a wonderful opportunity.
Honor your priorities
What this means, gentlemen, is your priorities will be Christian, husband, father, employee. Those are your first four duties; it’ll take most of your life. You’re not gonna have a lot of time. You're probably gonna need to put down your tools, your hobbies, your car, your projects, your golf clubs, your Xbox and probably going to need to put down the remote control, and your laptop, and your iPod to honor your wife parentally. You’re not going to have a lot of time for a lot of other things.
Gentlemen, your goal is not to stand before God and tell him what level you got to on “World of Warcraft”.

2011-06-16T09:18:00.003+08:00

Been a while, haven't really had the time, energy nor idea to write a good blog post
But here I shall try again
Basically my days have been pretty awesome
Going out, having fun and talking and sharing
Made me think about many things
About what has happened in the past, and what I wish for in the future
Especially in the process of finding your partner

One main topic that came to me was the issue of trust
How do we trust people, and how do we gain people's trust
It's especially hard to those who have had bad experiences to trust someone
And even harder for others to gain his/her trust

Trust takes lots of time to build
It's not about what we say, but what we do
Not over-promising and end up being unable to deliver what you said
It's about being honest, and being your true self
Such that one knows how you are like, and able to accept the person you are

Trust also need a lot of courage
It's about being willing to open the gate in your heart to allow someone new in
Without knowing how things will turn out
Will that person look after your heart, or will he just turn the place upside down
High returns comes with high risks... but you'll never know till you try

Give one enough time to earn your trust
Don't be over protective, nor be too foolish to let mistakes happen again
For the good of yourself, and the one who wish to love you

2011-06-10T23:22:00.003+08:00

This post marks an end to a great week
Everyday from Monday till Friday had been fun
Went to many places, chillax and talk
Movies, seaside, and lots of walking

I'm kinda enjoying my weekdays more than my weekends
Perhaps coz my weekends always seemed pack
But... I ought to be enjoying it too
Well, can't expect all 7 days to be the same...

Gahh, not too sure what I'm writing
Quite tired le
Working again tmrw
Kinda sian of work already... Even though I don't have to work frequently
Thinking if I should continue through July and August
Or should I just end after June
Rather do relief teaching actually....

K nites

2011-06-08T23:45:00.002+08:00

OMG!! Results is coming out in 15 mins time!
I AM SUPER SCARED AND NERVOUS!!
I wonder if I will get to see any A's at all
And I hope i passed my electives
No sense of security for this semester's exams at all
Just hope for the best
Come what may, I'll try to accept it

This week have been rather awesome, like seriously
So far Monday to Wednesday had been fun fun fun
Lots of fun things happened, HTHT a lot too
And its gonna continue on for the next 2 days
Or at least till tomorrow

Trying hard to plan my Europe trip
Its seriously hard to do so
Plans keep changing, though I don't really mind
Only worry is that nothing is fixed or confirmed yet
But okay.. still have 2 months plus to plan
Should be fine
VERY LOOKING FORWARD TO IT!!
Hope everything goes on well
Please don't screw up my hopes

Okay... I'm too nervous to continue typing
Good luck to all NTU students who read my blogs!

2011-06-05T10:27:00.001+08:00

Been a while since I last update
Ok... I'm not exactly in a good mood now after last night
I'll just share a bit...

Last night for alumni didn't felt as good
Been a while since I went back, but... feels so different already
Passive thoughts filled my head

My playing has deproved, well duhh, since I haven't been playing for that long
Den it just got me wondering... how long more will I stay in there
My peak performance is already over
I suddenly lost the passion of performing together
Maybe its because people has left, people has changed, things have happened
The band is very different from what it used to be, from what I used to enjoy being in
For the first time, I could see an end to this... and my life in band...

Den of coz, was put in some hard spots again
Plans being ruined, really got me very disappointed
What I want is not what I can get
Restrictions, time, priorities...
But what can I do about it...
Of coz there's always the method of lying, or playing bad
But... that's not me... is it?
To what extend would I go to get what I want... I really don't know

Den just when I was fatigued and disappointed
Another dilemma struck me
And I think I handled it real bad this time
Really regretting it now... coz I might have just lost what I wanted

When is it right to be selfish, to hold on to what you want and not let go?
Or should we be nice and slacken the line, be sacrificing, feel the pain alone in exchange for other's fun and pleasure?
I'm really stuck... and i wish there was a solution
A win-win situation where everything would be good
But life isn't always that kind...

~

All the fun things that we do, wouldn't be as fun if it wasn't for you.
- Tigger

2011-05-31T23:49:00.003+08:00

Looking back at the month of May
I have this indescribable feeling
I've really been through so so much within a month
It's very scary, at the same time shocking
Been a real emotional roller-coaster and eventful month

May has given me a taste of anger, disappointment, fear, worry, sadness, happiness, love, pride etc etc
All sorts of emotions, all sorts of ordeal
I've experienced it in this long dreary month
Which often left me exhausted and down
But at the same time, rewarding me with memorable moments,
And many learning experiences
I believe I've grown a lot from all these, and I look forward to what I can do in the future

Well, things are going to continue getting tougher
But I know, with the support of all my awesome friends and god-siblings around me, I can pull through
I'm very grateful to all those who have been with me one way or another for this period
To listen to me, to advise me, to accompany me, to give me a hand and push me along, and to encourage me
I am really a very very fortunate guy with many awesome friends
Thank you so much everyone for all the help and support
I hope I can repay all of you individually, one way or another

And for all those going through hard times as well
Lets push on together
Coz there are always things worth doing and fighting for
And the future is always sometime to look forward to

Hakuna Matata!

2011-05-30T16:28:00.005+08:00

Father's Day is coming soon.
I came across this article shared by Mrs Chak on Facebook, and I thought its really meaningful.
It will become a point for me to reflect and remember as I grow into adulthood
And aim to be a good husband, and father in the future.
~

A love measured in memories
by Jason Wong Updated 09:02 AM May 29, 2011

A large part of my working life was spent behind bars - as a prison officer. For 17 years, I was surrounded by inmates from different backgrounds; drug addicts and hardcore criminals, among others. I saw first-hand what bad or absent parenting, especially fathering, could do to children and adults.

I knew early on in my own family life (picture), from watching these men and their lives, what kind of father I wanted to be. In recent years, I have been working with at-risk children and youths and multi-problem families, and have been struck by the absence of a father-figure in their lives.

My professional life has taught me a simple principle I hold very dear: It is easier to build boys and children than to fix men and adults.

A few years ago, I did what an article suggested: Close my eyes and recall scenes of my dad and myself.

What I "saw" was me waiting eagerly outside my house for dad to return (he worked in a shipyard) because I missed him; him holding my right hand and teaching me to write Chinese characters - he was educated only up to Primary 4 in China; me snuggling up to his side at night to hear stories of his childhood and how he came to Singapore; his constant advice to me to study hard, not to smoke and drink.

I think about what I would want my daughter and son to recall if they were put through a similar exercise years from now. I hope they would be images of lasting memories we have created for ourselves, of time spent together, playing board games and bedtime routines.

I am reminded of a saying that "if you want to be in your children's memories tomorrow, you have to be in their lives today".

My commitment to family life was not a natural occurrence. Some years ago, I had a terrible day at work. And what do fathers do after a bad day? We come home and sit in front of our favourite "box" - the Xbox, the computer, the television.

Mine was the TV. This was how I de-stressed. That night, I was watching an early episode of American Idol where contestants made fools of themselves.

My wife asked why I was not helping her with the kids. I didn't want to bother her with my work problems, so I kept quiet. That night, we didn't talk to each other.

The next day I received a long email from her in which she expressed her unhappiness. In the last paragraph, she shared that, while everyone else looked up to me, at work or within my other circles, no one knew what I was like at home.

This was my wake-up call - no point being a hero outside and a zero at home!

I stopped watching TV (I've since resumed watching a bit as my kids are older now). I read to my children, play board games with them and tuck my son into bed at night.

A couple of years ago, I received the best Father's Day gift ever. My son gave me a hand-drawn card. Each page had a picture and a sentence like "Thank you for reading books to me" or "Thank you for telling me ghost stories". When I held that card in my hand, I knew it was all worth the sacrifice.

My dad has been my hero. I am what I am because of the sacrifices he made for his family. I spent a fair bit of time with him at the hospital early this year when he was being treated for cancer. Once, while I was following him closely on a trip to the bathroom to make sure I'd be there to catch him if he fell, it dawned upon me that that was what my dad did for me when I was a little toddler - walking behind me, watching me carefully, ready to dive forward to catch me.

On another occasion, when he was staying with me after his discharge from hospital, I took him downstairs for a walk.

All of a sudden, my dad turned to me and, with a twinkle in his eyes, said: "When you were young, I took you out for walks. Now, you take me out for walks."

As we rested on a bench, my 10-year-old son came up to sit with us. My dad looked at my son and said in dialect: "Your dad looks after you now. Make sure you look after your dad when he is old, just like what he is doing for me now."

My son smiled and nodded, and flew off to play again.

The richness of a father's love is best measured in the lasting memories we leave for our children.

These memories will one day guide them and comfort them as they comfort me.

Jason Wong is part of the team involved in setting up the Dads for Life movement.

Source: http://www.todayonline.com/Hotnews/EDC110529-0000007/A-love-measured-in-memories

2011-05-28T08:35:00.004+08:00

27th May shall be marked as one of the most memorable and awesome day of my life.
Everything went on smoothly and very well.
Had lots of fun, good food and great show.
Watched Lion King, AWESOME I tell you!
Love the way the adapted it to Singapore and the new era of music.
And the props and costumes everything was great!
At the end of the way, I was rewarded well for all my efforts.
It's all worth it.

Sorry no details here... Coz this is a "sacred" memory for me. lols
Jking, but still no details to the readers. Sorry... haha
If you want to know can try asking me, I might or might not share.

Adidas Sundown later today. 10km to run
Looking forward to it, been a while since I last ran
Work it out, clear my mind and have fun

2011-05-27T08:51:00.008+08:00

TGIF!
Here's a short update and thoughts
Not a lot of time to write coz I'm busy today
Big day for me today

Work at MBS is finally over!
Though boring and have to wake up at unearthly hours
It was a fun and slack job nevertheless with good money
Made a few new friends on the last day
Was nice to have someone to talk to even though it was the last day
And of coz had many HTHT sessions with juehong, and grace
Post work celebration at Mad for Garlic and Andersons
Awesome food TTM

To my wonderful SAs cum good friends,
Thanks to all of you for helping me and supporting me all these while
For UOC 2011 - Ketta!

2011-05-23T23:02:00.002+08:00

Just a really short update coz I am dead tired

Today was my first day of work for a banking event
Shepherd for a corporate delegate, chinese-speaking
I guess my culture adaptability is so good I started speaking like him
And he said I sound like I come from China =/
Basically a relatively simple but long boring job
Really need to find things to do there, coz its mostly waiting and waiting only
Hope I am able to be at another room tmrw, and meet a new friend

That is the first of my 5 days in MBS
Basically gonna be going there the whole week
And I'm just looking forward to Friday

June roster is out, gonna start work at SG Pools for one last month
Have that dreaded feeling again of not wanting to work
Of rather going out and have fun
But I guess we can't always play 24/7
And I need the money for the holidays, camps and other plans
Last month anyway.

Vietnam trip, still thinking if I wanna go...

K, that's all for today, might not update a lot this week
Sorry for the dull posts. Hope to find things interesting to share next time.
Take care!

2011-05-20T02:18:00.002+08:00

Exams are finally over for me! And that marks the end of my life as a freshie in NTU
1 year really passed very fast.
And I have had an awesome time in university
Uni life is so so much more fun although the stress level is unimaginable as well

Now that school is finally over. I have lots of things to look forward to already
1) UOC Camp
2) Exchange program to UH
3) More outings and dates

Lots of things to plan and do
Another set of headache for me to handle
But at least it is not academic and more worth the trouble

Gonna work at part-time for the last month too as well
Just submitted my planner, I foresee I'll have lots of changes during the month
Hope it'll turn out well
Just hope to earn as much as I can before I quit my job, and perhaps join again when I return

Had K-Grp post-exams XLB buffet dinner just now
Awesome time with them as usual, never fail to make me laugh
Feels good to see everyone back together again, eating joking and having fun
A very successful event thanks to my best AGL and SA, for helping me organize it while I had exams
If only they are these enthusiastic for other UOC events...
All for Ketta!

K it's very late and I'm uber tired
Nights ppl. And enjoy your holidays

Edward Reid - Britain's Got Talent 2011 Audition

2011-05-18T20:38:00.006+08:00

My last day of exam
I am supposed to be studying
But I really wanna share this video with everyone
MUST WATCH!! And listen carefully

Edward Reid - Britain's Got Talent 2011 Audition
Sorry I can't seem to embed the video, click above link to watch. MUST WATCH!

Jack and Jill will never be the same again

And this dance group is AWESOME!!
Diversity: Dance Group - Britain's Got Talent 2009 - The Final

Enjoy!

2011-05-15T23:48:00.003+08:00

I have to stay this...

I am very very grateful and touched by the HSA Bloodbank staffs
Okay, here's what happened...
I hate to admit it, but I went for blood donation yesterday without eating lunch
And I fainted after donating my blood
The nurse actually noticed that I wasn't feeling well and pushed me back on the chair before I white out
That is professionalism.
After that, many of them came over to take a look at me and ask if I was alright
Some reprimanded me for not eating, one even suan-ed me about it. But I was ok with it

Den this afternoon, a nurse called me to check if i was alright
Reminded me to eat the iron pills (which I didn't take) and drink more water
This is seriously wonderful service! I am really really impressed by them
First-class professional service.
I'm considering writing an email in to thank them for the care and concern
They really deserve the credits

Studied outside today
And I'm panicking for my elective
Coz I absolutely don't understand anything
And it seriously annoys and demoralising
First time I stare at the lecture notes and I understand absolutely 0%
NOTHING AT ALL!! Feel so stupid
Regret not attending lessons
And now I don't have much time for it coz my core modules are more impt
Really hope I can pass it =/

But today was a great day nevertheless
Was quite high at night
But it makes me happy to see ppl around me happy
So it was really fun =)

Can't wait for exams to be over... 4 more days
Hang on hang on!!

2011-05-14T00:44:00.002+08:00

Great day today
Had a good de-stress - gym, eating, shopping, walking around
Yea, exams not over yet... not even 50%
I have not forgotten about it
But after today I feel more ready to tackle the rest of the week
Just 5 more days and its freedom!! Can starting thinking about UOC and UK!!!
Excited much!

I've more or less started moving out of hall already
Well, not much attachment to the place anymore, which is a good thing
I guess home is still the best.
Showering at home is still the best!!!

Heard a love story on radio tonight
About a girl who fell in love with a guy who is her dance partner
Now married, and just had a child
Story is long, but here's the main point
She mentioned that the guy isn't exactly the romantic kind of boyfriend
But he is sincere, and will do anything and everything for her
Be with her whenever she is down, encouraging her through tough times
A down-to-earth kind of guy
Not the perfect boyfriend, but a perfect husband whom she can trust her future to

I guess that really is the most important, isn't it
After all, we are looking for a person whom we can trust and live with for the rest of our life
So I guess for guys, we should really aim to be the perfect husband, and of course father
And I believe by being those two, you will make a good enough boyfriend for the girl
Sincerity, true care, concern and effort to love the girl are the most important
Not how romantic or sweet-tongue we may be, coz these are just superficial
True love comes from within, deep in our character and values

Yep. It was a meaningful and inspiring story
Serves as a guide as to the kind of guy I want to become for my girl
Hope other guys will do so too

All the best! Cheers!

2011-05-11T23:44:00.000+08:00

This is the FUNNIEST The Noose I've seen so far!!
Fantastic!

THE NOOSE Season 3 Taxi Drivers Learn French EXCLUSIVE PREVIEW

2011-05-11T11:26:00.002+08:00

Been studying IT whole of ytd and this morning.
Let me show you application of IT at its best!
(Be warned, this is gonna be a very LONG and TECHNICAL and BORING post)

This is the capability of the current technology, Web 2.0
Its a second generation interactive Internet-based services which allows users to collaborate, share information and create new service online.
They includes services and technologies like cloud computing, software mashups and widgets, blogs, RSS and wikis.

Yes, this blog is part of the awesome services offered by Web 2.0, hosted by Blogger.com
They allow us to write our own source code in either HTML (Hyper Text Markup Language) or XML (Extensible Markup Language)
Source code is the text written in programming language to specify actions to be performed by a computer or program
I've written it in HTML, which is a page description language for specifying how text, graphics, videos and sounds are placed on a Web Page document, hence what you see on my blog page.
The blogskins we used are usually source codes written by other web designers, hence credits have to be given to them to acknowledge their work.
Or else you'll be infringing the copyright law

What are widgets you might ask?
Take a look at the chatbox, Twitter, and the "others" columns
Yes, these are widgets.
They are small programs that can be added to Web pages to add functionality.
Thus, it allow users to have more interactivity with readers, and also provides useful services like feedbacks and comments
Some others might include slide shows, musics

This blog can also be considered a mini e-commerce business
I'm using an advertising revenue model to earn money from the blog
This is by engaging Nuffnang, as seen in the advertisements area at the top right corner.
Well, Nuffnang is an e-commerce business, using sort of like an affiliate revenue model to earn money by helping businesses to advertise and provide referrals and earning a referral fee

I have linked up many of my personal information such as Facebook, Twitter and emails on my blog
This of course exposes me to many privacy and security issue
As any users can easily link up to other websites to obtain many personal information about me
Hence there is also an important need to be wary of what I post and what information I provide online
Blogs, Facebooks, Twitters are sources of privacy loss and intrusion

Well, that's just a small summary of what I've learnt in IT
And this "applications" are really distracting me from my studies
Sorry to bore you guys out, haha, but its just an idea which came to my mind
Well, at least I know I know my stuffs.
Wish me luck for my paper tmrw =D
And expect more things to come for my blog.

Cheers and Take care!

2011-05-11T08:11:00.002+08:00

When I text you, it's because I miss you.
When I don't text you, it's because I hope you will miss me.

2011-05-09T22:36:00.004+08:00

Exams is starting for me
I know most people are finishing theirs
But anyway, I saw this video on Facebook
I thought it was very good, so here I'll share with everyone
Do spare 3 minutes to take a look
Don't just wow at it, but also look at its deeper meaning

Girl Takes a Terrible Fall During a Race - But Wait Til You See What Happen...

This girl shows great determination and will power
The "Never Give Up" attitude of hers is respectable
And she doesn't even consider giving up at all
She stood up immediately and pushed all the way till the end

We will always experience a failure or defeat or a fall in our life
But its always about being able to stand up once again
I know most of us eventually do, but another point to consider is how fast can we get up
The faster we recover, the less disadvantaged we will be

Being disappointed or having failed is an important experience in our life
But never dwell in it too long, or you might miss too much to recover

And sometimes, after all the training and hard work we have put in
There is even more reasons not to give up
Do not waste your efforts
No matter how hard you fall, how behind you may be
It is possible to fight and give your best till the finish line
Whatever the results, you know you will have no regrets

Cheers people! All the best!

2011-05-08T22:12:00.001+08:00

"Being a mother is the world's highest paying job. Their repayment - Pure Love"
Quoted from someone (sorry I do not remember the name)

2011-05-08T10:50:00.002+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!
I would just like to use this opportunity to share and remind everyone...
How important it is to respect our mums.

After 22 long years, I've experienced and seen many things
But one thing for sure, our parents always care for us
No matter how naggy or annoying they might be

I'm sure they have their own ways to doing things
Sometimes in methods you don't like
But when you grow older, you'll start to realise how hard it is for them
And understand the point they are driving at you

So please do not curse or swear or scold your parents, or mum
Be grateful they actually care. Be thankful
And show respect.
Some day you'll realise how important they have been in your life
Do not love them just for today coz its a special day
Show your love and care daily, no matter how subtle it may be
Listening, understanding, and doing what they say would be the best
Coz as they always say, the greatest relief for Mums
Is to see their children grow up to be a better person, and to have a life better than theirs

Below are 3 videos dedicated to our Mums.

No More Questions - StoryCorp

听妈妈的话 - Jay Chou

Mother Knows Best - Disney Tangled (Rapunzel)

2011-05-06T00:36:00.003+08:00

Today's post will be about my day
Too exciting
What a day it has been today

I was very anxious and excited in the morning
So much so I couldn't concentrate on revision
Coz my interview article is out today!
Yep, for those who didn't know, too bad you missed it
Hahaha... Yes... I've been interviewed by The New Paper regarding GE 2011
And it came out today... 1 full page
Totally shocked me, I wasn't expecting that long
Was really worried that I appear ignorant or shallow
I think it does to a small extent, but the article was well written nevertheless
Here's proof =) On behalf of Young voters... hahaha

Oh.. credits to xiaomeii, Jennie, for "causing" all these to happen.. hahaha =D <3

Okay, enough about that
Afternoon went gyming and swimming
It was nice =)

Then comes to night
Met my new female friend for movie
Went to draw money while waiting for her
1st stun: a guy walked off after drawing cash WITHOUT taking the cash
I almost went to that machine, but I let another person go first (at that point I didn't realise he left his money there)
Then I dunno if that lady took the money, coz i saw the guy walking back to find it after i drew money and left
Bad Karma... I wouldn't have want to touch that money although it was tempting
2nd stun: the amount of money I have in my bank
wasn't expecting it

Yep, so eventually met up with my friend
First time hanging out, caught Thor together
Got to know her a bit more
Very very interesting I have to say...
First time knowing a girl like her... hahaha
That's all I'll comment

That's about all
Tmrw shall be an exciting day again I hope
Meeting my brothers for supper, can't wait =D
And shall laminate my article too

Tahs

2011-05-04T23:02:00.003+08:00

Figured I wanna blog a bit
Many things have happened this few days
And many thoughts have been running through my mind
But not everything is going up here
Coz it is really way too much, and most people wouldn't understand anyway

Firstly, is to congratulate the RV senior band for a job well done for SYF
Though I haven't helped them a lot nor really support them
But seeing them perform warms my heart
And this period of time always brings back fond memories of my time in the band
I am ever so grateful for being part of RV Band
Many, if not all of my closest friends come from there
And all who understand and knows me best are from there as well
All the ups and downs, laughter and tears, no one ever forgot
Memories treasured forever

Secondly, elections is really all over the place
I shall not comment anything about the politics or what
In case I say something wrong here, it wouldn't be good
And had an interview recently
Honestly, its awfully tiring and draining to do interview
I only hope I haven't said anything wrong
And I wouldn't appear like a shallow teenager
Which I feel I am after being questioned

Thirdly, studies is really getting damn tiring
But can't give up
So looking forward to the end of exams
Finally finished compiling my IT notes
Feel as though publishing a book
And I have only shared it with 3 persons
Sorry, competition is so stiff, I have to be selfish
And I was telling Stella today, I don't feel like competing anymore
Its just too much. Feel like just getting through it
Don't know... can I really just pass and don't hate myself for it?

Been a real emotional roller coaster since April till now
Lots of things had happened
Thankful for some people who were around for me to talk to
You know who you are. Thank you for allowing me to vent
You are the only few whom I can shed my mask to

Life is tough. But I have to be tougher!
And I shall constantly remind myself - Don't give up. And be patient.
Yes, it'll be all worth it. Someday, good things will come my way.

2011-05-01T20:37:00.003+08:00

A day without SMSing
Still constantly checking my phone
Hoping to receive one from you

Today was unproductive
Partly coz I'm not feeling too well today
Stomach pains again, no idea why
I did eat proper meals ytd and today, just a slightly later dinner
Yea, so only managed to study a bit
Finish up the last bit of biz law
Trying not to find any excuse to not study
Quite no mood because of certain reasons too

Anyway, while studying I was thinking about bungee
Hoping to do a higher one someday
Was searching online for the highest bungee
Apparently its in USA.
But I found a relatively high one in Switzerland
If I ever get there later this year, I would certainly want to give it a shot

Here is a video of it

Goldeneye Bungee Jump at Verzasca Dam, Switzerland
220m

Just hope tomorrow would be a better day

2011-04-30T00:02:00.002+08:00

Its the last day of lessons for semester 2
School has officially ended, 1st year will be over in 3 weeks time
Time really past quickly I would say, though torturously slow at times
And its also my last 3 weeks in Hall XVI
Gonna miss the place a lot, really
Many wonderful uni memories started in hall
Really hope I can make my way back again after the exchange
Though things might be quite different after which

Don't have nice or thoughtful things to post today
Can't think of or find any
Partly coz I'm really tired
I'll just highlight a bit of today and ytd

Ytd was good to bad day
Got back accounting mid-terms, honestly I felt quite devastated
Kinda over-exaggerate lah, but I really was very disappointed with my poor results
But I had to move on, coz there was another 5% quiz later that day
That was fine
After quiz asked my close friends out for supper
Curry fish head, vege and 50 satays!!!
Damn fattening, but had a nice and fun chat with them

Den comes the part which pissed me off once more
As usual, I stupidly posted my supper trip with them on Facebook
And got kb again by my group members for not jio-ing them
The worst comment: "Wah lao liddat lor, play numbers. Next time don't go grp outing le."
Upon that I totally started cursing and swearing (in my heart of coz, I can't go ard posting it)
Super super pissed with that guy.
With that I just took the post off the wall
Shame on me, making the same mistake twice. I'm the stupid one who ask for trouble.

What's the worst thing, I CANNOT GET FED UP.
Yar lahh, my fault lah. Me bias lah. Never jio everyone out. Sorry lah. Next time I will k. So sorry
Hah! what a big fat lie I have to make
But what can I do. I cannot let the group break apart
Sorry lah, I won't have my own private outings anymore

Grah.. damn it
Life is really hard being a GL

Today was fine.
Super tired
Had lunch, went school for talk, went for a walk
Den met soonbeng for dinner, watched Source Code
Nice movie, yep and I'm back home

Going out again tmrw.
Sunday have to start studying le
Not alone I hope

Oh, and 2 things I've learnt this week (self-reflection on blog is good...)
1) Sometimes I just have to suck it up and look at the bigger picture
2) Patience. Good things have to earn it and wait for it.

tahhs

2011-04-28T00:14:00.003+08:00

Chris Medina- What are Words (Lyrics)

Story behind the song:
Chris Medina and Juliana got together for 8 yearsafter engagement, they made promises to marry after 2 years. However, in 2009, Juliana got into an accident she is now suffering from brain damage.He sang his heart out for her in this song.

This is such a beautiful yet sorrowful song. Super touching.
And yes indeed, What are words if we don't mean them.
Promises are powerful, and should be honored fully.
Never, ever make empty promises. Especially to those we love.

Okay moving on...

I had a good long chat with a female friend just now
Being a good listening ear, and just letting her vent out all her frustrations
I guess I'm lucky, that friends put their trust in me and are willing to share
And I'm very thankful, coz they teach me lots of things, especially about girls
How girls feel, how girls look at things
And because of them I have been able to learn and become a more understanding guy
Then I can take care of my sisters and friends

And its a cycle you see, coz with that you gain more trust
And you get to hear more, share more, listen more, and improve even more
In return, I think sharing with girls my problems helps a lot too
Coz honestly not many guys/brothers can understand or give constructive comments
Eventually girls are still better listeners than most guys

I guess thats why I tend to have more female friends, and closer friends too
I'm grateful for all that they have taught me
Special mention to WenHui and Jennie, who have taught me A LOT for the past 8-9 years
My 2 dearest god-sisters, closest and most understanding friends

I think understanding females is an art, a very important one
And someday, it'll be most useful for the one girl you love.

2011-04-26T18:51:00.002+08:00

Perfect, exactly the picture I needed to sort of summarize my post today

Yes, Good is never good enough.
And I have learnt it the hard way for many years.
While some people are easily satisfied with what they have,
Some always wants more, and that's not wrong
This is not being greedy.
This is pushing your limits, and the desire to EXCEL.

For one, I'm not a person who settles for the average, or just good.
As many of my close friends would know.
To stand out from the crowd, to be noticed, to be given opportunities
One have to be better than good, and even better than great.
One have to be the BEST.
Of coz, best will always belong to only one person.
There can't be 2 best.
But aim high and work for it , at least you'll end up among the great.

But of coz, the fall would be harder as well.
The price to pay is often high, the consequences often harsh.
Stress builds up immensely
And for those who don't know, there has been an attempted suicide case in NTU
People are dealing with increase amount of stress year by year
Especially student. And stress management becomes a very important skill

And if you think your life is hard, think again
Secondary school kids who always complain about school work, wait till you enter JC and uni
As for us uni students, I'm sure everyone has never felt so stressed before
Makes your earlier school life like child's play
But what about when we go out to work full-time
I can barely imagine how hard it's gonna be
But as we grow, we learn, we adapt and we cope.
And that has to keep on going for the years to come
Experiencing failures and success will build us
But never take the easy way out, or we will never achieve great things

Just wanna keep this short
My inspiration for this post? I got back my Biz Law report
But I shall not declare my grade here
Just got me reflecting about my attitude and motivation
That's all. Study hard!

2011-04-25T23:54:00.001+08:00

I've found something to share with my readers!
This is an awesome French guy, a one man a cappella
He usually sings old, slow songs
But his voice is AWESOME!! I'll post 3 here, feel free to go YouTube and listen to the rest.

Pink panther treasure hunt: faireset VS Trudbol (duel 4)
Cute Pink Panther video by him

Aux Champs Elysées - Kartiv2 & Trudbol acapella French multitrack collab...
This is a very nice, light music. The female singer voice is a bit childish and tends to go sharp, but I guess thats her style of singing. She blends well with the guy though.

Coney Island Baby (Simpsons song) a cappella barbershop one man multitra...
One song sang entirely by him. Enjoy.

Yep, hope you enjoyed it. I'll probably share it on Facebook soon too.

Since this is a nice post, I shall not taint it with today's major school news. Next post bah.
Tahh

2011-04-25T19:05:00.002+08:00

Wipe out!

Okay... Today hasn't been too exciting and all
Nothing special in school
Except that all lectures are over for me (except electives which i rarely go)
Last few tutorials, 3 more weeks to exam
Its really time to get the gear moving and start studying
Need to oil my gear to let it run into gear 5

Only fun thing I did today was to head to the arcade
Played ReflecBeat and Bishi Bashi
Completed Bishi Bashi once more using 1 credit
But I think I'm lucky coz mainly Hongern and Joanna tank for me
LOLs, only lost 1 life from the super tough arrange the picture game
Totally couldn't complete it
And JP ReflecBeat is SO MUCH more worth the money
5 games for $2.20. Awesome ballz

Been observing my page stats quite closely
Many people coming in from my Facebook link
Guess it's very convenient
Disadvantage though is that I don't know who it is

Hey guys/girls who read, do leave a tag or what please
I know people are reading... Hopefully can make my blog a bit more lively
If I have time I'll post nice videos/photos
Though it wouldn't last longer than 3-5 days on the main page

Counting down to end of semester! 4 more days!

2011-04-24T22:09:00.002+08:00

Only gonna have 3 posts showing on my blog from now on
If I'm gonna be blogging everyday, won't certain good stuffs be gone before it is shared
Hmmms... Nvm... Too bad if you miss it
Not that I have that many ideas to post good stuffs anyway

About today first
Good weather, nice day
Finally out of my house by myself today
Lunch was great, ate at Mad With Garlics
Food is really awesome!
Can't remember which pizza we had, it was ABSOLUTELY NICE!!
And of coz, had lots and LOTS of garlic there
I really mean a LOT, its like much more than all the garlics I'll eat in a month
Their garlic bread is... wah... GARLIC
Pastas and all were okay, 3 chilli label was not spicy at all
But I think the food there is nice, and $$$ is acceptable
Not exceptionally expensive

Having some alternative plans for June
Hoping it'll come to fruition coz my life would become more exciting after it
Though gonna spend a bit, dunno if parents will allow
Add on to my expenses even before the UK trip =S
Don't feel too nice to keep taking money from them

My blog has had a bit of hiccup
Hmmms... Still thinking what to do with it

2011-04-23T17:44:00.003+08:00

Changed to a uber simple blogskin
Thinking if i'll be able to add some musics and pictures
Continue editing next time, its giving me a headache
At least its neater, simple and wider now
That's my main reason for choosing this skin
3 columns allows me to put more things as well

Anyway, I'm gonna relink everyone
So update me with your blogs/links if you want me to link ya

Oh, and I'll probably need a bit of help with the coding for my archives
Its messy...
Me a HTML noob

2011-04-23T09:35:00.002+08:00

Coz I'm damn bored at home
And online is freaking boring too
Been a dull long weekend so far
Nothing very fun nor special
Guess I ought to be studying as well

Feeling nervy and scared
For what reasons... hmmmm
Don't know if I want to mention
Doesn't matter, not here
Perhaps to someone?
But who?
Feels like I'm back to square one again

Yep, for all those who read/know
I guess you should have guessed I have a target le
Not together yet, just friends, getting to know each other better first
It hasn't even been a month yet, no hurry I guess
I foresee it's gonna be real hard to win her over
But I'm not going to give up
Coz I believe she will be worth the time and effort
Just hope I don't overdo things and put too much pressure
Coz I know I'll be heartbroken if I lose her

Exam period is coming soon
Guess its back to focus on studies first
Anyway I'm gonna get to spend a lot of time with her
So there is plenty of chance to impress her
And I still have to keep "ammunitions" if I'm lucky enough to get her
Oh.. and i wanna share this video with everyone
I really think its damn sweet
If a guy can make a women sincerely sing this to him, he's a great person

I think slowly I shall be more active blogging again
And perhaps change a new skin
This skin is outdated and irrelevant to me already
And I have a lot of feelings which I need to vent
Though I can't always express everything here anyways

Yep, till next time

2011-04-18T00:02:00.002+08:00

RV got their GOLD! Congrats on a job well done.
The RV spirit has been high this week from both seniors and juniors
Its a great feeling to see everyone still so happy.
And remembering all our great times together.
Band has really been a great part of many of our lives

Anyway moving on
Been mugging a bit recently
Thanks to someone actually, whom I'm always studying with
If not I'll just be slacking and wasting my time
S/U both my electives
Means I really have to focus on my remaining 3 subjects.
I would really hope for nothing less than an A (lowest A-)
If not I think I'll really hate myself for wasting this opportunity to do well

What's more, I'm still gunning for a 2nd specialization.
Starting to consider taking law as 2nd spec
wonder if it'll be manageable

*** ***

Okay, i really don't know who really reads this
My life is changing, and I'm happy
Yes, someone has entered my life, a girl
And I hope things will work out
Been positive so far, but it has only been about 2 weeks
So... yep.. i'm working on it

2011-04-06T00:41:00.002+08:00

Busy and hell week more or less over
So happy it is
Acct project was a horrible horrible experience
And i was cursing and swearing the past couple of weeks
Feel very bad and very sorry
Not a good image of myself
I am telling myself to not do so again
No matter how angry or stressed I am
At least not in social medias like facebook and twitter

Now just left with one more acct presentation
And of coz the more important IT project
Guess I would be more confident of my IT group as compared to Acct
Hopefully won't be of as much trouble as before
And we can get it done fast

Acct is really quite screwed
Very scared for it
Mid-terms was horrible TTM
Project report is =S
But I heard there is one more quiz
There is still a glimmer of hope
And I really need to work extra extra hard for the final exam

Have to keep reminding myself of my motivation and goals
Cannot slack so much le

SYF period has started
Yuhua got their gold, pretty wasted they couldn't breakthrough
But I think it is still a satisfactory achievement if they are happy with it
Cant wait for RV's turn, worried but looking forward at the same time
Really hope they will work hard and keep improving, fast too

Yep.. I'm super tired
Not gonna post too long
Need to get back to mugging mood
Nights

2011-03-27T22:56:00.002+08:00

Thanks to James and Beatrice who have sms-ed me to encourage me
Its really nice to know someone cares
Though I know there are many others who do too

But no worries, I'll be fine
It was just a huge release of frustration from one triggering point
A bit like a built up volcano
I know right... I've really been storing up

But everyone is busy, and I'm too tired or down to find ppl to talk to most of the time
Yea, I'm super busy too.
Just trying to work hard and wait for everything to be over

And to be honest...
I am having a bit of "relationship" issues troubling me recently
But I will not share here
Sorry, coz this is private stuff
Yea, just additional troubles in my mind outside academic stuffs

******

Hmmmm... I am really really confused
As usual in fact, I dunno whats the stand
Often I wonder if its me... if I've done anything wrong
How I wish someone would enlighten me
Coz this position is very awkward and tiring
And I fear it might hurt both parties as well
Whats going on??? I wish I could know

******

I realise that this "habit" or personality of keeping quiet isn't healthy
Especially if both persons are liddat
No mutual trust and understanding
How to break the barrier I wonder
But at the same time, its not easy to do so, seriously

******

Still waiting for that special one
Waiting for the spark
Perhaps I should stop trying so hard
And let nature take its course
I'll be patient in hope for a deserving one

******

Very abstract posts
No elaborations
Nites

2011-03-24T01:21:00.001+08:00

Let me rant here tonight coz i'm feeling frustrated and stressed and tired.

Firstly, I hate people who is all talk but does nothing
Seriously annoyed... coz they don't eff-ing understand how tough things are
And to stupidly make a comment and expect others to do something
screw it man! why don't you try doing what i'm doing now
not happy, don't be part of it, get lost, i don't care, i don't mind
just shut ur bloody trap
okay whatever, i'm just damn annoyed and pissed
not the first time already

Next, just when I thought I had lessen more load
I'm being piled upon again today but even more and heavier ones
So much things to do again
And its not any better coz mid-terms and project due dates are just around the corner
I wish there are more people who will take the initiative to help me
or at least respond or do something to help make my job easier
and yes, back to the same point
if they don't eff-ing wish to help fine, don't give any comments
and don't even wish for me to treat you nicely or give you benefits
coz they don't eff-ing deserve it

And know what, i feel damn alone in school
roomie is rarely nor ever around
always say want to study together, but he doesnt do so
neither can i fit his ridiculous study habits
whatever, i am just trying to get used to being by myself
isn't it always the case since last time
i learn and experience things the hard way
no one to help me, no one to guide me
in the end, i suffer alone and learn to grow out of it by myself
im full of battle scars, but i still get hurt
even the most seasoned warriors feel the pain at times
whatever, i don't need him
i'm getting tired of always helping him
but somehow... i seem to always be at the losing end
sucks big time

how i wish life can be easier on me...
22 years already... been trudging and pushing since 13
thanks for the hardship... just that i'm looking forward to a bliss which i cant see

but i shall be grateful
grateful for the wonderful people around me
yea.. even though i don't approach them.. i know one of them will be ard if i eventually break down
but perhaps i'm just to "want face", so i refuse to bow down to difficulty, i refuse to break

okay... i'm fine now
shall go to bed
have to do tutorial tmrw... no time to lose for studies already
nights

2011-03-11T10:22:00.002+08:00

Inter Hall games has finally come to an end.
Been an awesome start to the year with all the games and competition
Everyone trained hard, become teammates and good friends
Its an awesome season for my hall too.
We came in overall 3rd, which is a great achievement considering we are only 6 years old.

Had the HOCC last night, closing ceremony
And also the dance competition.
Am very glad to see my hall dance win 3rd position
They really have put in lots of efforts, dancing and training till 3am every day
And I'm glad at least they won it for our hall cultural areas
And I totally loved the Hall 1 dance too, the champions.
Its their 4th consecutive win, congrats to them
Totally well-deserving, here's the video

Okay, my super tiring, no-sleeping and fun weekend is here
That is after my quiz at 2pm
Lets just hope I survive this weekend with minimal sleep
Last day of the first half of this semester
Projects and tests coming soon, time to catch up on studies
Ciaos

2011-03-01T00:26:00.003+08:00

Its already 1st March.
Been 2 weeks since i last updated
I don't have much to say. Don't have the energy too.
Anyway people don't really read my blog
So whatever
All I can say now is... I'm very very stressed and messed up

Stupid me opening my mouth and getting myself into more and more things
Tutorials and projects are already enough to kill
Let alone UOC stuffs, and now hall stuffs too
And not to forget my INSTEP application which is still an effing huge chore to do
GRAHH... know what, sorry to say, i might have to put my school work behind again
Until I get rid of my backload one at a time

But then again, I would look up from my laptop and look at the board in front of me
1 card, 1 "notice" and 1 shiny blue bag of stars hanging from it

And I tell myself I have to be strong
I will tackle each problem one at a time
I will stop wasting time and procrastinating and get the things done
I will continue to cope with my studies and do well
I will preserver and finish up all my task to my best ability
Thanks my dears <3

2011-02-15T00:05:00.002+08:00

Been almost a week since competition is over
For those who are interested to see what my team did here's our video

(If you wanna find me, I'm the one running in with the box covered in black cloth)

Yep, it's such an awesome routine
Really a pity our stunts failed towards the end
Or else it would really have been perfect.
ASEU (All Stunts and Energy Up)

Nvm, moving on
Now that I've decided to go for INSTEP (exchange program)
The decision has been bugging me
First is cheerleading, I can't fight alongside my team to regain our lost glory
I feel super bad to pangseh my team. And I will really really miss them
I would definitely join back in Year 3
The problem is, will I even have the chance to? Will they still be around?

Secondly is my roomie, Hongern.
Gonna miss him for 1st sem
If he's going for INSTEP during 2nd sem, gonna miss him for the whole year
Would I have a room? Would I get to room with him again?
Though he is messy and all, but its still better to have someone I know
And someone who knows me well

Thirdly is Jennie and Wenyi
New potential freshies into the school
I would like to be able to look after them when they come in
And I already sort of promised to be around when they step into NTU
But now that I'm going, they will have to be on their own
Not that they can't take care of themselves though

I just have a feeling I'll miss a damn damn lot of fun during the 1st semester
But... This is my few chances for exchange
I guess I have to really convince myself it'll be worth it
There's still a 3rd year for cheer, and 1.5 years for all my friends
I certainly hope my decision is the right one
Or at least I'll make sure I make full use of my decision and not regret it

2011-02-10T05:38:00.002+08:00

Very heartbroken, disappointed, sad
Been how many years since I last cried
Really felt like crying again today
But have to hold back the tears
Have to put on a smile and be strong

Yep, cheerleading competition today
We didn't win, we didn't manage to perform to our best
Ranking dropped, hopes were dashed

After so many hours of pain and hard work put in by everyone
Its really really very disappointing to have things not go the way we want
Yea, we can't be perfect
But today was not the day to have any errors, not even 0.01%
And it happened, one after another

I'm really heartbroken to see my team mates cry
Coz every one have put in their maximum effort
But were not rewarded deservingly
1 person's mistakes affects and brings down the whole team
Thats the power of teamwork in cheerleading

So sorry to have let our hall down, to have let our seniors down
To have a ugly record in our cheer history
Can't even give our graduating seniors a reason to celebrate
Can't even fulfill their last dreams in the team

I don't think we deserve such results
But what else can we do...
We can't blame one or two people
Coz no one wants it to happen

Perhaps give us some time to settle down, recover
Before we move on
And regain our lost glory next year

2011-02-06T05:06:00.002+08:00

Post 400

Its Sunday 5am
I'm dead tired, about to settle down to sleep after training
Training, being able to work my muscles again felt good
But got scolded for failing to catch the flyer
3 more days to competition
Pressure is building

Disappointing results from Arsenal today, kinda spoiled my mood
Luckily Man Utd had their first defeat of the season
Its still a point earned, though could have been all 3

Listening to mei mei's blog song is so emo
V-day coming next week
I'm thinking about how I want to spend it
Alone? Or who should I ask out?
Well, actual day is a school day anyways
I have a girl in mind... but... something is stopping me
Shld I ask her?
Wish I can have a beautiful and cute girlfriend
Wish I can find my other half... soon
oh wells...

Tired
Time to rest... and dream

2011-02-04T22:05:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to one and all.

Day 2 of CNY is coming to an end
I'm already prepared to pack my bags and move back to hall tmrw
Marks the end of my CNY holidays, 2 days earlier than others

No, I'm not blaming trainings for it
HOOC is on Wednesday 9th, just 4 more days, 3.5 more days of training
Gunning for top 3 positions, and I'm willing to work and train hard for it
Not after everyone has put in at least 100 hours of sweat, blood and pain
And in total I believe we are clocking at least 3000 human hours of hard work
All just for 5 glorious minutes on stage

Cheerleading is really the hardest sport to be in and play
And one which truly shows the importance of every individual and teamwork
We are tougher than everyone else, mental strongly and highly motivated
Physically more tiring, painful and difficult
But everyone is pulling through, everyone has a common goal
Our stakes are high, people's hopes are on us, expectations are mounting
We dare to dream, Team Xtreme!

Those who wish to watch us, this Wednesday, 9th Jan
1830 hours at NTU Sports and Recreational Center
(Feel free to check out our Cheer Rally video on my fb, though you probably won't spot me)

Anyway, back to CNY
Don't feel exceptionally fun or what
Been quite dull, nothing really special
Lost a lot of money too, and that totally sucks
But what to do, that's gambling. Really been down on my luck recently
Nevertheless I'm sure it'll pick up soon, and I certainly wish it will peak on Wednesday
No special plans for CNY, no money for it already, perhaps just one more movie
But everyone seems to be busy, no one asks me out anyways
People always say want to do this do that, but no one bothers to plan
I've had enough of planning and getting disappointing responses
Too tired and busy for it, but consequences to bare are lonely days

Have to start saving up my money and stop spending too much
And I really have to settle down to study once competition is over
2nd week of school only and I'm already lagging behind

Tired, time to rest...

2011-01-27T02:46:00.002+08:00

Yet another late night...
And my stress and fatigue is really piling up
I have so many things to do
I really feel like breaking down soon

And to add on to my workload
I have to do my graded IT presentation next Wednesday
First group to present
No benchmark, no briefing, totally don't know what to do nor expect
I cannot afford another B or even B+
Have to work hard for an A- or above

And this adds on to my already increasing amount of work for UOC
Which only my AGL and a handful helps and supports me
But they can only do so much, the rest I have to do
Finding ppl for garang guni, find people for open house, find people for camp
meetings, photoshoots, distributing CNY goodies... what's more to come?

Every night cheer training from 8pm to 1+am
Though tiring, training really helps me take my mind off all other problems
Just a temporary escapade
But training itself is already damn stressful, which the high expectations of the hall and friends
And trying hard to hit the stuns, saving the flyers, running the routine, doing props, paint banners, learn dance...

And I still have my INSTEP to research and submit
Along with a scholarship for it
And I haven't even touched my tutorials and revision

I tell myself to be strong
I appear to be strong
I have to be strong

Sorry for the long rant
I'm in the lonely fight against time and myself

2011-01-25T02:52:00.002+08:00

Last stretch into preparation for cheer competition
Training 6 days a week
Right elbow is kinda injured already perhaps, i'm not sure
Definitely feels that way though
Always have to numb the pain with deep heat to carry on

Having lots of doubts about my INSTEP
To go semester 1 or 2
Really really don't know
What if I fail to get it in semester 2
Then I won't get to go overseas anymore
And going INSTEP means no cheer next year
Would they still want me back in hall?
I would waste a space which can be better used for other people

Should I go with them?
I feel quite left out even though we are good friends
And also kinda "bright"? I dunno
Perhaps I'll just travel alone and see the world myself
Though I really wish to have someone with me
Its a rare and special opportunity

School has started
Have to start doing tutorials soon, needs some getting use to again
And severely having sleep debt too

Oh, planning to take a minor in energy
Super random I know, just happens that elective fits
Dunno if its the right choice
I don't feel certain and confident about it

Thats a huge problem of mine bah
Forever that indecisive, Always missing out and having regrets
Or perhaps I just think too much
No courage to make bold decisions?
No aim, no goals?
No motivation, no reason

No one cares anyway...

2011-01-18T00:16:00.003+08:00

Results for 1st Sem is out...

Financial Management: B
Stats: A
OB: A-
Marketing: B
Comm. Fund.: B+

GPA: 4.11

Its a good result. But not good enough for me
I'm disappointed with my FM and Marketing
I thought marketing could be better
And I really wanted to do well for FM
But unfortunately, that's that
And unlike secondary or JC
There is no more second chance at the course

Gotta move on
Additional motivation to excel for the rest of the semester and year
1st class is not unachievable yet

Target overall GPA for end of Year 1: >4.3

2011-01-14T02:22:00.003+08:00

just a short post.
been almost 2 weeks since i last updated
and it like 2.22am on 14th Jan already

reaching the end of 2nd week of cheer training
4 times a week
week 3 onwards gonna be like 5-6 times a week
but i believe it wasn't as intensive as the seniors last year
still, i can feel my limbs giving way
left shoulder and right knee is not in good shape anymore
smaller parts like wrists and elbows are hurting too
but training must go on
endure the pain and put in the effort
well.. at least i can do a nice cartwheel now =D
cheer is really fun, but tiring and scary at the same time
the fear of injury, fear of flyers falling off and crashing into the floor
but the feeling of doing a stun successfully beats it all
its the exhilaration bah..

course registration today
first time dunno, didnt know what to do or expect
anyhow click here click there
made a mistake
now just waiting for add/drop period and hoping to get electives i want

UOC stuffs are getting so troublesome and hard to do
selling CNY goodies and bah kwa
group members are so unresponsive and unsupportive
targets are so hard to hit
its really getting quite mafan and annoying
being in the main comm is really damn tough
can see many other GLs like quite heck care already
lucky i have a very supportive and helpful AGL
if not i think i also will be dying like shit too
though my group isn't that helpful anyways
just hoping that everything will be over soon

kinda wishing for time to past fast
so many things going on and to do
having a bit of sian-ness and dread already
waiting for cheer competition to be over
waiting for UOC to STOP canvassing
waiting for exams to be over
waiting for free time to spend with my frens and for myself

for now, just try to smile, enjoy what i'm doing and spend my time wisely

2011-01-01T23:54:00.003+08:00

Can't believe i'm sick on the first day of 2011.
Just as the first day come to an end... perhaps let me review 2010
just a few highlights of the year

2010
1) ORD lo!! (SAF Band)

2) 21st Birthday! (lots of thanks to my best buddies - james, conrad, youwei, wenhui, gimling and jennie <3)

3) NEW ZEALAND Trip (MOST AWESOME TRIP EVER!! Crazy bungee, great company)

4) Langkawi Trip (Another wonderful first time trip with my longest and dearest friends)

5) UOC camp & Kasen, K-family (first encounter with uni life - made lots of great friends)

6) All that happened with Joyce mei mei and the evileens (her birthday, the AR/hide and seek)

7) Hall life and Uni exams (awfully fun staying in hall, hardest ever mugging for exams)

8) Band chalet (great way to end my 2010)

9) Relief Teaching in RV (good money $$$ great experience)

10) Colourful XLB experience with xiaomeii Jennie =D

Yeps... these are what i remember and treasure bahh
though doesn't mean others are insignificant

People to thank... hmmmm...
wonder if i wanna type here since not a lot of people read my blog le
but of coz im really grateful to my close friends
all my dear sisters: wenhui, gimling, jennie and joyce
my brothers: youwei, conrad, james and jax
[bbc]: jiesheng, hongern
important friends: aikling, karen, joanna, xinying etc etc.
(kinda lazy to think le)

yep... it'll be too long if i typed it bah
shall not do so, not now at least... or it'll be on facebook

yep.. thats all for now... lost the feel to blog le

2010-12-28T15:45:00.002+08:00

Back in hall after a brief Christmas holiday
Preparing myself for a super duper packed month ahead
Starting from today

Ok... I'm kinda regretting organising the band chalet
The same things always happen... never improves
I put in the effort to get everyone here
But people don't appreciate, and don't respond
Many times I told myself I'm not going to organise such things
But I still did, thanks to my wishful thinking
In the end, I'm the one who goes through all the trouble
I'm the one who spend the most money
And I don't enjoy the process at all
To make things worse, I have things packed back to back
No time to rest, no time for myself

From cheer training to chalet to airport to work to chalet again to UOC 10.5 to more training
I sense more late nights to come and little rest
So not looking forward to anything
I've lost the mood to
I just want to get all the events over and done with

Only have 8/31 free days in January, and that excludes my work shifts which have not came out
Predicting only 4/31 days free for January

And I'm mentally prepared coz...
I'm in this alone...
Just let me survive, and if kind enough, let every event be good

Not feeling too well these few days
Itchy throat and frequent sneezing
Stomach feels weird sometimes
Quite lethargic most of the day
What a way to start my hectic holiday

*******

I don't know whats the name for
When I can be ignored that easily
Or shrug away with just a whatever
I don't see a need for my presence
Nor a need for my efforts
At the crossroad
Continue forward or turn back
I really don't know

2010-12-20T20:13:00.003+08:00

December 20th...

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY MICHELL!

You are one girl whom I'll never ever forget, and shall be one of the biggest regrets in my life.
If only I matured earlier, if only I knew you a bit later.
But I am glad you are happy now. Still smart, hardworking, caring and beautiful as ever.
Please stay that way k! Let me know if he ever lets you down, I'll go after him for you.
And lets hang out one day soon, been a very long while le.
Loving and missing you loads =) Take care!

***

I'm down to my last paper on the 23rd.
To sum up my exams so far,
It has been really tough, nothing like secondary or JC.
I have put in my due effort I believe
And I'm quite glad it hasn't disappoint me so far
I have high expectations of myself, I do not want to disappoint anyone
Especially myself
Just hope that the results will be acceptably well
1 more paper in 3 days time
I shall not slacken or whatsoever until paper is over
After which, I'd really want and need to enjoy my holidays

Trying to pack my days as much as possible
Which also means super high expenditure is expected
And to make things worse, I haven't been working
Means very minimal income, and rapidly depleting savings
Shall have to prioritize, save a bit, starve a bit, control a bit

***

They say we are attracted to the people whom are most like us
Birds of the same kind flock together
I'm starting to think it is rather true
Coz it totally explains me and my situation
But i shall not write anything here
Internalize it, digest it and accept it by myself
Though I'm really wishing for a change
Life like this isn't easy at all

***

My X'mas wish

.....................................................

May it come true.
<3

2010-12-09T23:46:00.004+08:00

Been a while since i last visited the site
these are about more appropriate during this time for me
and are things that i try to remind myself regularly

How important it is to learn from mistakes
guess its particularly obvious in academics
making a mistake once is a lesson learnt
making the mistake a second time is a warning
making the same mistake a third time is stupid
making the same old mistake anymore time is ignorance
well, have to be strict with such lessons
or you will never be able to improve

and of coz, never settle for second best
always give your best
though we might always think we never do our best
and people rarely say so either
but i think we can tell by our growth and hopefully achievements as well
i think we can never be satisfied
but so long there are improvements, its a good sign
stay motivated, want no regrets, and always work for the top
aim for the stars, even if you can't reach it, u'll land among the clouds
beside the rainbow

***

exams is coming in 3 days time
i'm sleeping earlier, waking earlier and studying less
lols... mugging mood comes and goes
somehow i don't feel stressed or what, which is a good thing i guess
i have very high confidence in what i've learnt and revised
but sometimes confidence does fail me as well
nevertheless, i believe i know what i know
but consistent revision is still necessary i guess
not gonna stop mugging, but i'm not gonna stop having a life either

past 3 days at rv band camp has been tiring
but fruitful and meaningful
helping the juniors once more, teaching drills and musics
hope to lighten the load for Ms Chan
(certainly hope i did not teach the wrong stuffs)

now that almost everything has finally been moved aside
it really time for me to focus 200% on my studies
got reminded of my many many reasons i need to study hard and do well
for so many dreams and so many people
and i certainly hope it will continue to drive me to do better and better

Looking forward to xmas
marks the end of exams and start of holidays
and may time be trapped between 24th dec and 31st dec
fully enjoy the last week of a wonderful 2010

2010-12-02T21:26:00.002+08:00

my semester is coming to an end finally
tmrw will be my last seminar
though i'll still have a report to submit next friday
but its such a relief, like honestly
uni life isn't easy at all
plenty of ups and downs, fun and stress
but i think it has been really interesting
and i'm really grateful and appreciative
don't regret any of my decisions so far
staying in hall, joining camps, being in cheerleading, in sports etc
i'm sure it will have a lasting memory on my last phase of school life

hmmmm... exams are coming in 2 weeks time
while most of my friends are already celebrating and enjoying their holidays
i have just started mugging for my exams

and i'm really jealous of all those who are overseas enjoying themselves
i'm already starting to miss travelling, although i had my fair share earlier this year
but still... those days were the best
just play, enjoy, relax, no worries, no stress, see and learn new things
really should travel more when there is the opportunity
don't miss any and regret in the future
OCIP, exchange or even just a school trip to China or wherever
i'm sure there are always things to learn
no matter how near or far, cheap or expensive places you go
don't be picky, keep your mind open and just travel and learn the world

Cambodia OCIP, Thailand Exchange
these two options are available
but due to other commitments, i still don't know if i can go
really wish I can
please give me an opportunity to

Japan, Taiwan, UK, USA, Switzerland, New Zealand etc...
I'm waiting, waiting for more money, waiting for the opportunity
one day, i will visit all these places.

2010-11-25T16:20:00.002+08:00

blogging from my school's free access lab
waiting for lesson to start in 10 mins time

hmmmm.. what shld i type
had lots of mixed feelings recently
not very good ones actually
i know deep down im emo-ing a little
but i have to learn to cover it up and give a smile
shall be good at it

lets see...

Tuesday was wonderful =)
brought my dearest xiaomeii out for dinner and movie
watched Megaminds AGAIN
this is the 3rd movie i watched twice in cinema
haha.. but for her i think its worth it
went for a walk to Marina Bay Sands, lovely place
bought her her 18th birthday present
not cheap, i don't mind spending on her
i think its worth it

wednesday.. which is ytd.. was kinda... forgettable
yar.. now im trying to recall what happened
oh.. volleyball friendly was screwed up
didn't get to play a lot anyways, too noob
rushed home to return car
bought bubble tea
lols... perhaps i'm hoping for good karma
i ordered 4 cups... in the end i gave all away and did not get any myself
oh wells, doesnt matter... koi doesnt really appeal to me anyways
especially the massive amt of pearls in it
night playing bball... quite fun lahh..
stayed up late

so im now surviving today with 3 hours of sleep
still have many activities ahead
shall try to rest early tonight
tmrw need to study study study

dat's for updates
just a bit of emotion venting now

feeling a bit left out sometimes
from my group of friends
somehow i always don't get to know things
maybe coz i don't hang out? or i don't get invited to hang out?
if not it'll feel like im in things alone, minimal help and support
well, i know a lot of people... but how many do i really click with and talk often?
i really dunno.. none?
just feel kinda sian sometimes
missing cheer training... the fun time working hard and motivating each other
though its tough life, but at least people there are nice and fun
momentary indulgence/escapade? i dunno what word to use

ok gtg for lesson...

2010-11-23T01:36:00.002+08:00

i'm like cuddling to chow sang sang now while i'm typing this
feels nice and comforting. really.
oh.. in case u dunno who chow sang sang is... he's a dog
a stuff toy dog... belong to my friend called chow en en (grace)
somehow she really loves the dog
but i have managed to dognap him away from her
check out my mobile uploads on fb to see the adventures of sang sang

school semester coming to an end soon, in 2 weeks time
exams starting soon
last few projects to complete
really hope for exams to come and end soon
and really relax during the semester break

heys... does dogs empathize with their owners?
i think they do right? as seen in movies or shows
omona omo emo... who can empathize me?
ahhh.. thats life.. im just plain tired..
so much so im emo-ing le
quiet night, lonely night
(actually not lah.. just that my roomie is studying somewhere else)

hee... ok.. enough of that
got so many plans after exams
ahh ok.. im tired.. too lazy to blog le
ciaos

2010-11-10T18:39:00.002+08:00

just a short quick post before i rush out for dinner.
hmmmm.. lots of things happened as usual
for those who followed my twitter or blog or what
shld know i didn't have a very good weekend
despite it being a long weekend
but it was quite bad (excluding friday)

just a summary of what happened
sat lesson was fine, survey sucked
super tired when i got home
sunday work was okay, quite productive

very happy that i went to my cousin's hse
been very very long since i last went
amazing that i still can rmb how to walk there
and walking in the drizzle kinda suited my mood before i met them
had a chat with my cousin
he got the comics i want to read!! awesome!
shall get it from him after exams
and he showed me a new card game which got me really interested
troubled 妹妹 to help me look for it in China
thanks a lot! =)
and as usual my awesome cousin is still someone i really respect and look up to
he's my role model since young, and still is now
such a great guy! feel so fortunate to have him ard

that night Arsenal lost to Newcastle, it sucked
still troubled over my surveys as usual
and my car died on me
locked me out, don't let me drive
left it at the multistorey carpark to be towed away

Monday rushing to get the car fixed
and doing survey
pathetic 1 only

brought my family out for dinner
crystal jade steamboat, dad's birthday, me and my sister treated
back to school, training
kinda hurt my joints and shoulders already

ok.. times up... gtg..
update next time

2010-11-06T21:28:00.002+08:00

I miss the days when i can slack at home not knowing what to do
the days when I lie around and complain that I'm bored
days when I just go random places for a walk or hit the gyms

such days are long gone
replaced with hectic never-ending days
when we work from morning to even earlier morning
when its like a running a losing race against time and school work
as time past, more thing comes

more undesirable things have been coming compared to happy moments
screwed up FM and Stats quiz, multiple reports to rush, projects to do
weakest link for UOC canvassing
being left alone by my friends

the only good thing so far perhaps... I've did well for my OB report

I'm super exhausted
been sleeping 4 hours every night this week
my elbow and wrist and neck is acting up and hurting
pressure to meet deadlines
can't even take a break without worrying about things
let alone worry about my major exam which is coming in like 1 month time

and what's worse... I can't break down
much as I wish to, I have to remain strong
or at least pretend to remain strong
nvm... forget it

I am starting to have doubts about certain friends now
why can't my own people support me
why do I always end up with another group
in hall is like that, now even UOC
I'm really jealous of the other groups, of the other group leaders
how i wish i was there, then perhaps i wouldn't be in this position now

but i'm grateful for the 2 of them who came and help
and my sister group people for helping me, and the seniors
and i have learnt to appreciate the effort of my GL
coz i think he experienced the same thing

i just wish that my sacrifices are worth it

i miss you~

2010-11-02T11:02:00.002+08:00

my future career decision struck me again while i was traveling in the bus
not the first time i have doubted my future plans
i'm in biz sch, learning accounting
reason? coz i'm quite certain i can earn good money to support my family in the future
however, office jobs and admin work isn't very appealing to me
i would have chosen engineering for more hands-on
but accounting was a better path
but if i want to follow my interest and perhaps passion
i would want to go into teaching as a career maybe
after being a relief teacher, i think that teaching seems more meaningful
though it might not be easy as well, but i feel it would be more worth it
and of coz its not the dull sit-at-the-desk jobs which i don't like
teaching is more interactive and fun, though it has its horrible moments
but holding me back is the pay and future growth
how much can i earn? would it be enough to give my family a good life?

so once in a while i feel wavered in my choice
should i follow my logic (acct=$$) or passion (teaching=<3)
its a choose one sacrifice the other
how? i still have the option of changing course after the sem or first year maybe?
anyway I can have scholarship in NIE, might be a plus point too
and its probably easier to study in NIE... i think

ah wells, shall not think too much.
still have to perform well for this semester regardless of what i want

2010-10-19T13:18:00.002+08:00

been super long since i last update
so many things have been happening
too busy to blog anyways, though i seem to always have time to waste

"The less time we have, the more time we waste."

quite true ain't it
den people start chiong-ing and regretting
but no point crying over spilled milk
its whether you learn from your lesson
and make sure same situation don't happen again

its my recess week
though it doesn't feel like a week for us to rest
good thing is there are no lessons
so have the entire week to catch up and finish tutorial
but its also filled with trainings and projects
shall not panick coz it does no good
calm down, plan the time properly, and tackle one thing at a time
really hope to still be able to enjoy some part of the week
well, i've kinda wasted my entire weekend at home and work
i think my break time is over, time to do some serious work

concert in 2 weeks time, can't wait for it to be over
cheer is fine, though i'll be having 10 hour training in 10 mins time
wonder how its gonna be like, excited yet scared (that i can't endure through)
UOC meeting has started, work plan for the year is out
really looking forward to next year's camp, though it like 10 months away
and exams are in less than 2 months time
1st sem gonna be over, how much have i learnt and achieve?

slowly and steadily projects are coming and finished
as we head towards december and the exams
now gonna just look forward to semester break
where finally can really let loose, party and do other things

ok... that's about all i want to say at this point of time
time to psyche myself up for training.
jiayou!

2010-10-05T18:44:00.003+08:00

got free time, thought i'll post a bit
today is unusually free, which is a good thing

ytd night slept super duper late, 4+am
even after a super tiring cheer training from 9pm to 12 midnight
somehow i kept myself from falling asleep to do my stats tutorial
with a bit of supper, and peer pressure of mugging in the room
but yep, took super long just to do 5 questions, sucks
next morning woken up at 8.30 by hongern's cry of shock
coz he had lesson at 8.30, and he just woke up. LOLs
so yar, i decided to wake up too, to go home and drive my car to school
plan was to drive hongern home to get his guitar for tmrw's audition
but apparently he still haven't confirm his plans
so here i am still stuck in school

so i'm really tired now, but... i think i'll try to stay up
and have an early night
shoulders are aching from ytd's training
but i feel that i should go for a run tonight
but with barely 5 hours to sleep... wonder how i will feel later
i'm seriously becoming very nocturnal

just completed my marketing tutorial, taking a break now
no dinner plans nor dates
perhaps i'll just feast on biscuits or cup noodles for tonight
and try to finish up my OB report as well, which is due this sunday
stress for that... 20% of my grades on it... and its tough to do

gahh, feel like knocking out and sleeping... sians
k, shall stop here...

2010-10-03T02:08:00.003+08:00

entire saturday just flew past liddat
without any studies or revision done

anyways, morning and afternoon was band totally
10am till 5pm, sectionals + combines
honestly... i'm getting quite tired of it le
can't wait for the concert to be over
the only thing that is keeping me there is mel
well, its kinda sad, but band times are the only time i get to spend with mel
so... yarrr... other than that, practice is... dull

den Hall 16 DnD at night
as usual didn't dress up appropriately
really kinda spoils a lot of fun
but, hais, dunno leii... its just a weird feeling
and a kind of tiredness about things
too lazy to put in the effort?
but the night was okay
our shouting and screaming paid off with our grp pageant girl winning the Hall Princess

a few main things that happened during DnD
Hongern was called to stage for game... haha
it was funny watching him on stage
being put on lipstick, and walking catwalk as a geek
with his "Kick Me" tortoise paper on his back

den the climax was lucky draw...
1st price was a trip for 2 to Bintan
0007 was my ticket number (blacK), and another girl's (pink)
0007 was called! but it was pink... -.-
prize went to the girl T.T
damn, first time that close to winning a lucky draw
hongern also almost won a prize in the top 5 too
just missed it by a few steps
but well, no luck to both of us, how sad
what's not meant to be ours will not be ours

i just hope that this unlucky event would mean that we'll have luck another day
stay optimistic... lols.. what goes around comes around

hmmmm...
i feel a bit disconnected from my hall group
don't seem to really truly enjoy myself with them
feels like i'm faking it or just trying too hard to be part of them
its just tiring and sian after a while

oh, just rmbed one more thing
haha, kinda glad to have hongern ard
we still always have fun tgt
taking funny pictures tgt
and take pictures with someone else's Lamborghini
and helping out one another
though his messy and late-coming character still annoys me sometimes
but he's still a great buddy to have around

well ok, its really late...
shall rest, lots of work to do and catch up
nites

2010-10-01T23:43:00.007+08:00

Oh, just to promote a concert i'll be performing in soon
My first concert in NTU

Prismatique
Brought to you by NTU Symphonic Band

Date: 31st October 2010
Time: 5pm
Venue: NTU Auditorium
Price: $8 (free seating)

Repertoire includes:
Theatre Music, Russlan & Ludmilla, Clarinet Candy, Bugler's Holiday, Turandot etc.

Approach me for tickets if you are interested to come.
Thanks for your support!

2010-10-01T23:30:00.002+08:00

Been almost a week
Just post some thoughts and feelings
shall make it short coz my eyes are hurting and i'm tired

hmmm, firstly...
its getting really stressful in uni now
i'm creating a lot of backload (as hongern said)
barely catching up with tutorials and lessons
report due dates are coming soon, and more presentations
tutorials are never ending
and lessons are ever so confusing
i thought i would like Financial Management, i still do
but i'm so very confused by it now, its very annoying to be defeated by it
time is now ever so precious in school
and my optimum studying time is from 11pm to 2am
which is not a good thing
fighting fatigue everyday, meals are getting erratic too
barely 1 month since school started, studying ever so hard
reading chapters before lectures, every night working on tutorials
wow, welcome to uni life songhua!

i'm giving up on my concert master post
sorry to say that, but yar, i can't cope already
my school work is giving me lots of problems
can't afford to screw it up, or my future plans of going overseas are gone
making the effort to work hard and even harder
must really really catch up asap or else it'll just get worse and worse

im making uni sound very scary eh.. lols
its such a weird feeling
coz i really have lots of fun in uni when its time for fun
but when studies come, it is also really stressful
everything you learn is so new and so challenging
but i guess i'll still be enjoying my life here
its really an awesome part of our life
and i believe a great ending to our studying "career"

well yar, thats basically it about school
other than that, i guess there is nothing else

Just to wish all those who are having examinations
GOOD LUCK and ALL THE BEST!

2010-09-25T07:54:00.003+08:00

Saturday morning and i'm still in school
didn't sleep very well last night despite my effort to get more rest
hongern's surprising return woke me up
(luckily coz i had ledge the door)
and there were plenty of stuffs in my head

recently went for a Work and Travel talk (missed one ytd too due to unforeseen circumstances)
Work and Travel to USA looked so so attractive and fun
be it work in part time jobs, or even at summer camp
however, i had just realised i cant go for any of it
next holiday would be busy with my UOC camp
next next holiday would have to do internship
so have to scrap this idea already
fortunately there is still a New Zealand work and travel, 6 months, anytime
shall consider it for graduation trip
till then, i shall keep my feet on Singapore grounds

ok, i have realised i gotten myself into lots of activities.
refering to the last post, i'll tell you what i am committing myself to
its only year 1 of my uni life

1) Hall XVI Cheer - Cheer Xtreme
have joined the cheerleading team of my hall
partly due to girls, coz my two super chio female senior frens are inside
and they have both asked me to be part of the cheer team
partly is i have been interested to try cheerleading since JC
its a high teamwork sports with dance, physical and mental training
and so far i've been doing well in the training
and i am really enjoying being part of the cheer team
they need manpower for the upcoming hall opening show
so i shall not back out on them

2) NTU Symphonic Band
initially i was keen on joining
but cheerleading shook my decision
was planning to just complete the concert with them this october
and probably leave and focus on just cheer
but i have once been tempted again to join, and run for Concert Master
dunno how the existing CM came to find out abt my desire for that post
he approached me, asked if i want to try
of coz i do! it has been one of my biggest wish to do so again since i left RV

3) UOC Camp
this is another commitment which i had agreed for even since before uni started
i totally enjoyed the camp, and i love my group people
i am expected to be the Group Leader for the next camp, expected by my whole group
and i want to be the Group Leader as well, bring fun to the next batch of freshies
i don't wish to miss out on all the fun next year, coz i know it would be very heartbreaking
and my UOC group has been the nicest and closest bunch of people so far in uni

Cheerleading and band gonna make me sacrifice my free time and sleeps at night
UOC camp is making me sacrifice my Work and Travel plans
all 3 are such big and heavy commitments
i have made a decision to take them all, coz i want to have no regrets at the end of year 1
already got my time planned out, coz it fortunate all the major events do not clash
comes one after another, hence means i have no time to rest
no free time for my own stuffs
i'm am mentally prepared to give up my rest time and social life
to study and mug whenever i am free from trainings and practice and preparations
play less, go out less
worried how it would affect my social life in school
just hope that my friends would understand.
and here's to all my other close friends too
i am really gonna be very busy, i doubt i will have much or anytime to hang out
but please don't forget me ><
i shall try my best to squeeze out time, but i can't guarantee anything
gonna be mentally and physically exhausting for me
but i am gonna push myself to do it
big decision to make, but since i am gonna do so, i want to have minimal regrets
i know i have made the right choice, and its what i want to do.

shit im running late, no time to think and write properly
ciaos